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2011-12-15T21:24:00.000-08:00

Trying as hard as I can.

Hey blogger, it's been awhile right?
Well SPM is over and it's been weeks already. And guess what? I am single again (:
It's really a long story and I really want to forget about it. Moving on though :D
And what's have been bothering me these past few days is things around me and I don't know if I can cope and I still can hold on to it.

You know what i honestly feel? Sad and stupid.
Afterall... i know i am not that strong but i am trying to be strong. Trying to smile as much i can. And try to keep this sorrowness i keep in my heart and try not to show it to people. Cause there's no one I can talk to about it. Except you, blogger.
But have you ever felt like you feel like telling a person all you feel but you can't cause you don't want things to get worse? Cause u don't want them to think you're an attention seeker or just trying to get into a fight?The pain in your heart, you feel like telling them but half of the pain is about them? How do you wanna tell right? But i'm still trying to put my feelings aside. It's not worth my time... and i won't let my feelings bother anyone. Let me just stay quiet.

Sometimes i feel stupid because i just let people make me sad, make me angry or whatever it is and i just smile smile smile... what if one day i'm not around anymore? Baru time tu ke nak rasa bersalah? Baru time tu ke nak rasaaa yang i don't feel appreciated? Sometimes i feel like whatever I do.... NO ONE will ever feel like its a good thing.. mengutuk ade lah. Baik sangat kot.
People around me change and there's nothing i can do about it. As i grow up, I will go through all this shit again and again. Until the day i die. Sometimes i don't want negativeeee thinking conquer my mind , but i can't help it.Its all a fact.

But being sad all the time is just not me. I'm a happy person, a loud person.
I just need to learn to grow up and stop sulking. From now on, i will promise myself not to let anyone, or anybody take advantage of my kindness and whatever happens i will learn from it. I am not perfect myself, i make mistakes too. I make people angry too. And not knowing, maybe i did hurt a lot of people. But i know it wasn't my intention.I love to see my loved one smile especially when im the one who made them smile and when they hurt because of me... i instantly feel awful and sometimes i am an awful person. Or even a friend.

And i'm the type of person that forgive and forget.
Remember when i was fourteen where i thought were my "bestfriends" create an ANTI-NINI thingy on myspace. Guess what...? they're still my friends.. and still are my girlfriends. Yes it hurts .. and those tormented years.... but why do i have to stick to the past and when I know there's much beautiful things i can experience soon. I'll just have to wait. This is just me.... insecure,low self-esteem and crazy bitch.

Oh and LESS THAN THREE is in progress :) xoxo

2011-11-02T01:59:00.000-07:00

Love Unexpectedly.

Hey blogger, guess what?

I am no longer single :) I have a boyfriend now. Maybe it's too early to tell you that but I just need to say it here :) Well, erm guess who? He is my friend since i was primary 3 and it's totally awesome how GOD does his job because I am with my good friend that i've known for 8 years now.

I swear I don't know how things happen and when people ask me how it happen.. how did he ask me to be his girlfriend... i'll be like :O becauuuse i just don't know how to explain it! ONLY GOD knows how complicated it is to tell people how i got together with him.

He doesn't mind people knowing I'm his girlfriend but he have to keep it down low for some reasons that i can't tell of course. I totally understand, i mean come on not a big deal right? :) I just hope that things will work out because i'm having my big exam soon and i really really need to study. Like 3-4 hours a day or more. I have to keep my head straight. Really focus. This relationship is a long distance relationship , i honestly don't know how it really work cause honestly this is a real relationship that i'm going through right now. So far...... i've never been in a relationship likee.... it's really hard to explain actually haha.

But oh well, who cares.

Oh and totally forgot that i am SEVENTEEN ! I am seventeen yesterday! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME ~ *singing alone*

Yeah and special thanks to Haziq Akashah ♥ my handsome handsome bestfriend who bought me a cake and celebrate it at my home with my beautiful bestfriend Shafiqah Othman Hamzah and her boyfriend Rangga and also my beautiful Bella ♥ Thank you guys so much for making my day yesterday, it may not be the most AWESOMEST "party" but it meant a lot to me :')

And if you wanna know who this special someone i was talking about...

he is my cina boy ♥

And there you can see his picture on my wallpaper ♥

My favourite picture of him :) Muhd Fida'iy Tan ♥

29 October 2011

And also to my bestfriend whose always been there for me! ♥

SPM IS COMING SOON! I have to go go go go and study now.

Guess how many days left? ZERO ! :)

Wish me luck. And happy birthday to me :)

2011-09-10T09:44:00.000-07:00

Big mistakes.Big lies.Bullshits.

I feel so dumb right now. I feel like a bad person. I just feel like I'm not a good person.

I feel like turning the time back. And fix my mistakes.What is actually wrong with me? Who am i ? Pfft i am nobody.

Now you're in my eyes, or is it just temporary?

I felt something, and i know you don't. But what is wrong with me?

Dear someone, i'm sorry! I hope you don't think anything bad about me :(

I hope you don't lost your respect for me. I'm not what you think i am :( Please?

I think i need to talk to you :( sheesh. you're a great friend and i wouldn't want you think bad of me. Seriously, i am so sorry aite? :/ argh

p/s: i am so sorry.everyone.

2011-08-22T06:18:00.000-07:00

Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan :)

Can you believe it, its already the last week of Ramadhan :) And alhamdulillah , this years ramadhan is actually quite fun too ^^ Hope you guys enjoyed it too. Next week, is already HARI RAYA! Woah.. so fast. And that's not what im excited about.... its SPM :P HAHA

Okay i am so not excited about it! NOT FUNNY :(

84 DAYS TILL SPM !

Gulppppp, help me. I am so not ready, i swear i feel the heat and pressure now.

So many things happened in few months, and i don't know where to start. I think i will start blogging when i finish school. Which is..... next year (Y) So just wait for my blog to be updated, i mean who cares about my blog... HAHAHAHAHA

Okay SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI IN ADVANCE! Love you allz.

2011-06-23T02:59:00.000-07:00

Instead I am just invisible.

One day i will read this and i will.... definitely be wondering who im talking about. But i need someone to talk to . So yeahhhh ;)

Today was kind of memorable too. Maybe .... not that memorable but i want to write it down because i think it is a sweet memory. So yeah if you realize i only put bittersweet memories here :) so don't mind me kays? let me tell you the story.

Short story: I said sorry to apple and things are just kind of.. funny just now. We looked at each other but actually we're supposed to be angry at each other but maybe we just can't because... we don't really take things seriously D: But i didn't really talk to him yesterday so yeahhhh ~
We accidentally looked at each other and then we LOOKED again and then start laughing but then i looked away cause i wanna be "angry" but i don't know why i just can't be angry at him D:
Why do i have to care about someone so childish and lame and immature guy like him ?-,- i like this guy i like that guy at the end of the day he is the only guy i will say that i like so much.

I don't expect us to be with each other but i just wanna know ... if we had the chance.. do you think that something special can happen? You know what? it doesn't even matter because i am glad he is a friend of mine .. and if he is happy i have to be happy for him although it hurts me :)
Only if he knows.......... :P

She can't see the way your eyes will light up when you smile
She never noticed how you stop and stare whenever she walks by
And you can't see me wanting you the way you want her
But you are everything to me

And I just want to show you, she don't even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
And you just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle, unbelievable
Instead of just invisible, yeah

There's a fire inside of you that can't help but shine through
But she's never gonna see the light, no matter what you do
And all I think about is how to make you think of me
And everything that we could be

And I just want show you, she don't even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
And you just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle, unbelievable
Instead of just invisible

Like shadows in the faded light, oh, we're invisible
I just wanna open your eyes and make you realize

And I just want to show you, she don't even know you
Baby, let me love you, let me want you
You just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful, miracle, unbelievable
Instead of just invisible, oh, yeah

She can't see the way your eyes will light up when you smile

2011-06-18T05:34:00.000-07:00

She can't see the way your eyes

Light up when you smile.

Today was kind one of the best day in my life! :D

I decided to blog here because today is HISTORY! I know! my school? like come on.. yeah. this year our principal is DATIN AISAH ... somehow things change and its like fun! i don't know about the future but it was really fun!

I am just kind of an emotional freak right now because i miss my cheer squad. We practiced for FOUR freaking days , NO SERIOUSLY, FOUR FREAKING DAYS till saturday to perform infront of all the people. And i was in the blue house which is PERDANA! :D OMGEE! I have to admit all this practicing makes my body ache but i seriously enjoy it. If they don't , that'd be lying because i mean besides the aching.. everything was fun! (minus the part where me and kamal were too fierce when we teach them how to cheer) HAHA! But its all for the team :') i SWEAR i've never committed so much like this, THATS WHY i feel so ...omg is this how you feel when we all get together and achieve victory. Like woah ! it sure feels good! :)

Oh i know i know my blog is dead but who cares. I just wanna write this because i want to! its important. Okay so the whole point is just that i feel down. And i am suprised that the boys that joined in Faiz,Meerzan,Haris,Arish and Kamal (co-captain) was really committed and took things seriously! I hope they had fun doing this thing.. i know KAMAL AND ARISH DID! :D I just wanna thank them for... making a beautiful day for me today. Typin all of this seriously makes me cry. cry cry cry cry... i've never been this sooooo i don't know i cry a lot today! wtf ?

And to all the beautiful girls :') Although i shout and scream at you guys.. you know i did that for the team so that everything is right. i LOVE ALL OF YOU GIRLS! BEAUTIFUL GIRLS! LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU! ♥ THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH! WITHOUT YOU GUYS THINGS WILL BE... HAIHHH! U GUYS ARE ALL AWESOME !!!!!

And to the traitor who makes all of us.. in trouble one day before the real shit..... fuck you! hope you guys are satisfy.. either way...... PERDANA WON!!!!!! WOOOHOOO ~ IN YO FACE BITCHES! We don't freaking care! >:) heheheheheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

PERDANA'S MOTTO: "WE ARE BETTER THAN YOU"
Hell yeah we areeeeeee people~ (Y) woohoo!

oh and yeah i forgot about this part. i got more emotional at the Burger King when Bella and Cass read the wall post i gave to them before the real day together! It was just soooo :') moment! seriously! I bet everyone is feeling the same way too! look i just wanna cry now. gah! fuck fuck fuck. hate crying.

Okay so. maybe i'll update more about my life if you care to read.

GOODBYE.

PERDANA IS IN THE HOUSE
PERDANA IS NUMBER ONE
SAY HEY (HEY) SAY HO (HO)
PERDANA LETS GO!

YEAH YEAH YEAH

2011-05-03T03:08:00.000-07:00

LOL !

Hey blogger. I am so so so so million times sorry i didn't post anything anymore. I am seriously lazy to blog and when i have the mood i am lazy to re-type back all the things i did these past few days :/

Well you also need to know i have a band. Well its not really a band i suppose. More like someone i can sing and play instruments with. Time flies so fast that right now, i am going to sit my mid-term exam. I am not ready yet, but i have to be ready. Grrr help.

And i mean come on blogger, you know that this is like a dead blogger. No one reads my blogger. Unlike shafiqah's hers' is.... well fascanating and a lot of stories. I met a lot of people this year, and i've gone through quite a lot although its only May :P HAHAHAHA.Sheeeesh i can go crazy lah man.

I wish i can tell you more about whats happening to my life but gosh ..... me no mood to put a lot pictures HAHAH there's toooooo many :P

LOVE YOU BLOGGER. XX

2011-01-30T02:54:00.000-08:00

I don't wanna miss a thing.

Dear bloggie, hello ! :) Its been awhile i didn't write in you. I know. I am all outdated and i didn't update it. Well ... things are getting pretty great i guess? Ermm a lot of things happened and .. i don't where to start actually.

And i seriously don't know where to start. Well ermm i have a lot of homework since the day i started school and I am trying to finish it all up but things just .............. don't really want me to do it! HAHA. I am trying to focus on my studies... SPM SPM SPM! :) Okay i have nothing to say now :(

Love, nini

2011-01-01T09:04:00.000-08:00

Happy New Yeaaaaaah~ !

Omg can you believe it? It's 2011! Woooo, i know this is too late... but hey its SENIOR YEAAAAR BABY. But honestly, i have no mood to blog anymore. I don't give a shit about it. And its not enjoyable to read it anywayz. And ermmmmm, i am SEVENTEEN!?!?!

LIKE OMYGOD. Can you please say it again? SEVENTEEEN ? And sitting for O'LEVELS? How freaky and scary is that? Its not a happy thing :( I am seriously going to miss my teenage life. I seriously wanna cherish my moment in school and all. I don't wanna waste it with bad things. I want it to be ALIVE AND FUN THIS YEAR. I want to start a new chapter. I wanna try to be a better person. LOL Gonna make new friends? New boys, new life. New everything i guess.

Ya Allah tuhanku panjangkanlah umurku dan Ya Allah penuhilah kehidupanku dengan penuh ibadat2. AMIIIIIIIIN.

I just hope i can do well for my SPM. I'll just have to focus this year. Cannot play play anymore.Oh and NEW YEAR CELEBRATION WAS FUN. I just can't name it all. But well the usuals Shafiqah and family , Uncle Saiful and Family , Cik Wan and Family....... oh and yaya elora fiq haziq shandy emir fauzi and zul aziz was there too! HAHA very unexpectable. We all countdown together but..... except for HAZIQ. Bleargh -.-' I had fun, and not forgetting, A'at and family , mama, cik rosni and pak long, along and family came down around 10 pm :) I had a bbq. AND i didnt expect to have so many people HAHAHAHA but yeah i loveddd it. Wish it happen again next year. Especially when SPM ended HAHA !!!!!!

And to my beloved neighrbour Acaaap Cracckooo,

take care at Melaka, don't be notty. And i miss you already. Hope you don't remember all of us crackshead from UBIN. WE LUFFLES JOOOOOO! :D ROCK ON BABE♥

ALRIGHT EVERYBODY , MAYB 2011 ROCK THE RHYTHM FROM LONDON TO L.A!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~

love, nini

2010-08-28T01:46:00.000-07:00

Doubt- Doubty

Can you guys tell me how and when can i have some self-confidence?

Like seriously, i think i need to SEE a psychiatry is that the word? Yeah to make me feel like i have chance to be something that i wouldn't really thought i would. And especially the guy i like, liking me back for who i am and will make me smile no matter what.

Right now the issue is that i don't have confident that whether the guy i like, like me back.

Like what's my problem now? I thought i don't care whether he don't like me, but honestly i do care. I just care and i just wanna know whether he likes me or not. That's all. Like my bestfriends Shafiqah,Haziq and Pao told me he does like me.... and i do have a chance there. But at the same time, im doubting those thoughts they have. More and more each day i feel like he won't like me at all. But if i keep on thinking that way HE WILL NEVER LIKE ME and it will happen more. Its the POWER OF ATTRACTION something liddat :P But too be honest, i just don't know what got into me. I seriously need to tell myself that :

If he don't like you NINI, then there's someone out there who will love you for who you are but not now. Why can't you be fckin patient ?

But sometimes it can't be helped right?

But right now, if i really want to hear from his own mouth whther he likes me or not , i have to be ready for the pain or for the excitement. ITS WHETHER YES OR NO D:

OMYGOD i should stop now ! omg.

God please show me some signs. Amin :)

Before that i have a confession to make,

Dude i like you and although we haven't meet each other yet.

You just lighten up my day. Always.

And thanks for listening to my stupid love stories. While i told you that,

i didn't realize that you are the one who've been making me smile :)

IM STUPID LA OMG SHUT UP NINI

OMG AAAAH OKAY BYE

2010-08-26T07:41:00.000-07:00

Let's talk about ME !

Did you see the difference between those two hair?

HAHA yes i cut my long hair :) Just wanna make a change.

I don't feel like myself with that kind of hair the first picture btw.

Aaaah, i shouldn't color it or cut it. I feel like a stupid girl with no personality :(

I have no confidence in myself these days. Can you guys tell me why?

AAAAAH, i hate this feelings.

I want some self confidence.

Can i go change myself? :( Ah okay bye.

2010-08-26T02:53:00.000-07:00

"Bless The Broken Road"

Another happy news! Well at least to me it is :)

You remember my shorty right? Yeah yesterday i got all the pictures that he promise to upload. But unfortunately, he didn't really smile :( instead like he is sad because he got a friend like me. HAHA but who cares because he wink at me on the picture ;) Waaaah ♥

(Only god knows how much i melt and smile alone) Here is a picture of him :) And you will know what i mean. *winkwink*

Arn Jamaluddin:Girl,i'm winking at YOU!♥

And this is a picture of him that i edited :')

Did it hurt when you fell from heaven :B ?

Maybe to you guys he is not superbly handsome ,hot or whatever shit. I just don't, care he looks like an angel to me :) And also heart that matter. He talk to me not because i am pretty or whatever, he talks to me because he is just a friendly cute guy :') You are just too awesome and i don't know how to put in words. Danish said i am only all GAGA over you and it might not last long with what i feel towards you. But you know what, i just don't care as long as i am still friends with you ♥ That all matters ! Because you are A LOT TOO LOOSE ! No joke. Thats the only thing thats gonna hurt me is that not being your friend :(

But what i am thinking is that, you are out of my league. I KNOW that you will never like me back. But whatever it is, i am just happy we are friends. And omg, i can't believe theres a bitch who bitch about me on his formspring :( Jealous much?! So sad sad sad, but he came to the rescue and all his words are just so wonderful. I didn't expect someone would write something so awful about me. HAHA well i hate my hair too HATER !

Can do me a favor?
Tell me what you think of me?

Thank You for the pictures :)

♥ you !

2010-08-19T22:15:00.001-07:00

Perfect two ? (Kantoi much)

Thanks to my bestfriend,Shafiqah Othman Hamzah that shorty knows about my blog :/

HAHA. I mean i feel so embarrassed.

AAARRGHHH! D:

I just hope he don't feel annoyed. I am so scared :S

I just hope he knows that i don't mind just being friends because being friends with him already fill my happiness ♥

I stumbled upon this song in Jeah's blackberry and it really attract me. You guys have to listen to it. Its the most cutest song i've ever heard :3 I mean seriously. And the song is just so perfect two :) HAHA

You can be the peanut butter to my jelly
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly
You can be the captain and I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that I feel on our first date

You can be the hero and I can be your side kick
You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'
Or you can be the sun when it shines in the mornin'

Don't know if I could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

You can be the prince and I can be your princess
You can be the sweet tooth and I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages

You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as we're together

Don't know if I could ever be
Without you cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

You know that I'll never doubt ya
And you know that I think about ya
And you know I can't live without ya
No..

I love the way that you smile
And maybe in just a while
I can see me walk down the aisle

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me (for me)
And I'm the one for you (for you)
You take the both of us (of us)
And we're the perfect two

We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

2010-08-18T05:40:00.000-07:00

Ma shorty ♥

Dear shorty,can i say all the good things i wanna say about you?

Can? Okay here i go. First of all.

Everything about you is cute,like so damn cute.The way you like my things,pictures and all it is seriously cute.Melt my heart too:)
You make me smile everytime i see your name on my notifications.Maybe i haven't met you yet like fer real but i feel like i've seen you before but again its ridiculous. You make me feel all jiggly when i talk to you. I mean you listen to me, you compliment me, you are there when i need you or when i need someone to talk to. You are just someone that i adore so much. I am just lucky that my bestfriend is one of your girlfriendszszxs or else, i wouldn't even know you exist. I mean come on, you are such an AWESOME guy who wouldn't want to be your friend. I just feel so lucky to be one of your friend because you are just soooooooo awesome to talk to. You make me feel pretty and ALIVE ! Like you make me hyper. Like you are my sugar from far but it affect me so much like a caffeine. I am not so sure what i just said, but all i know its true. I mean it. Has anyone tell you , you have great eyes and face structure? Like of course, who doesn't notice right? you're like the cutest thing that anyone could ever meet. I just hope one day that you and I can meet and count the stars together and start singing, twinkle twinkle little stars song.Its the most cutest thing to sing if we see the star. RIGHT RIGHT? err nooo? haha. I am afraid i would fall for you :( But thaaaank you for being a great friend. you're like the most happy,HYPER and sporting guy i've ever met ;) And don't change that. You may have a wife now on facebook, i'll make sure you that im gonna be your real wife. HAHA seriously i am joking :P And maybe i sound obsess :( But i am not, i just wanna express my feelings.

And most of all, you actually listen to all my stupid love story which obviously is not worth listening to because all that "HAPPY" moments is all a fantasy:( But i am happy at the bright side because you make me feel like i deserve someone someday. And if i found someone that will make me feel YIPPPEEE , i will thank you for that.

Can i ask you something?
(can i keep you?)

Hey there shorty, you're already a song that stuck in my head.
You are like a melody on my own.

Hope you don't freak out when you found out about this.

Btw haziq says:He is like Taylor Lautner;)

THANK YOU LORD. HAHA
AND THANK YOU CUTIE FOR LIKING MY PICTURES.

2010-08-18T02:33:00.000-07:00

i.LOVE.you.GUYS.

Seriously, i am just afraid losing a friendship like this again.
Trust me its not nice to lose something so beautiful since people don't know what we are going through.

I am not gonna repeat the same mistake.
Oh and by the way that is Haziq Akashah ♥ My bestguyfriend.
We've been knowing each other since we were 12 years old and that makes us ,
WOOOHOOO FRIENDS FOREVER ! (Y)

And of course you guys know ma homie,Shafiqah Othman Hamzah ♥
My bloggie will always be about her and me doing stupid things together.
It feels like forever with her. And we have our bittersweet moment, and you guys have no idea what we've been through. And guess what? Like duh, her new crush is Haziq Akashah and they both kinda like together but not together. So there is a little something there. LOVE SPARK* macam paaaahaaam~

So yeah now i got my homies. Shafiqah and Haziq ♥
Only god knows how much i love you guys and i wanna tell you this before again i screw things up like how i did before this.

Thank you for everything and without both of you, i won't smile and laugh so much.
I love the sleepover we had the other day at my house and i hope you both won't forget that day. Seriously, i don't know when is the last time i feel so belong in a friendship that is full of LOVE AND LAUGHTER. Thanks a million times. Sorry if i ever hurt both of your feelings, and you know i will never wanna hurt you guys. I promise, i won't screw things up. Insyallah. But just please, don't leave me alone :(

I remember that night that we all dance, HAHA seriously it is unforgettable and iem still laughing to it HAHAHAHAHA xD here i go again, laughing alone infront of the computer :P

Can i have this forever pl0x?

2010-07-28T04:13:00.000-07:00

I WANT AND MISS MY BITCHES ♥

2010-07-28T00:28:00.000-07:00

i LOVE what's going on! ♥

Let's just say i've been spending a lot of times with them. And with more information, go to my soul sister's blog-http://sfqomhz.blogspot.com

Okay toodlez

2010-07-27T05:26:00.000-07:00

Did i do anything wrong?

I don't know why but today i feel so angry and frustrated.Yes i mean i didn't go to school but OMG, i was effin tired due to the drama and lack of sleeping. I just feel sooooo pissed and feel like there's no reason for them to be so angry at me for lepaking with the "JANTANS". How many "jantans" were there actually? Its only 2 of them and you even know the both of them. Its only haziq and rafi.Why this time you blame mum for everything its none of your both faults. I am just hanging out and doing nothing.Its a different story if i do drugs,drink and smoke. Its not like i do that. I still have my brain and senses okay!

Forgive me if i am not like all the other kids who can do well in their studies and so nice stay home and do nothing. I have a life, and i know what i am going to do with it. Yes maybe right NOW, i show you i don't want to study and i hate studying..i mean who doesn't right? But i know what i will do for my future! I won't be stupid enough to ruin it by just lepaking with my friends. I have the moments where i think where i shud go after school okay. I just don't show it. Like i said, don't judge the book by its cover. I maybe the worst, but i am who i am and theres nothing you can do about it. I am sorry, i love you both... but if only this little thing can make you mad then thats it. I just don't trust you guys anymore.

You don't trust me too. Why shud i trust you guys?

2010-06-25T10:26:00.000-07:00

Stupid For You ♥

You make me smile ♥

This explains a lot how i feel about you :)

Oh and i've watched the karated kid!

ITS FUCKING AWESOME !

2010-06-16T02:18:00.000-07:00

12 June 2010.

I have lost my beloved uncle, Muhammad Bin Rabi (Yusri). Till now i am still sad, feel full of sadness and also emptiness. I just sometimes cannot forgive myself for what i've did to him. Its not that i hurt him in anyway or I intended to hurt him. But i've let him down for some weird reasons, and i just don't have the initiative to say sorry to him. I didn't know he would go that fast. He just looks fine to me, i mean he is not as healthy as he used to be but he does looks fine to me still.

But its okay, i know he would forgive me although i didn't have the time to ask personally from him. But seriously, is he really gone?! Can't i like use some magic powers so that i can turn back time and treasure every moment when he is in my house still alive. Actually i do, but its just that time flies so fast that u don't even realize somehow something what u do is sometimes a mistake. He is already fragile like a baby. But still, i didn't realize it. To be honest, i love him more than i love myself, and also my real dad. No i still love you ayah, but papa has been taking care of me since i was baby. It feels like he is my real dad. I can't stand looking at him lying on the floor without breathing, and just closing his eyes. And when i kiss his forehead for the last time, he is so cold and yet smell soooo good. Mama , mummy and along is still sad though. Of course! its their dad and also mama's husband. Like seriously, papa is a really good man. Everyone loves him,and everyone was crying like HELL. And the worst part is i finally cry infront of everyone. I just can't stand looking at him unalive and with all the kain kapan's. Seriously i cry soooo badly and i have a really bad migraine.

I actually followed till his grave. OMG, so many people lah! Can u believe it, so many people love him, not only families but also his friends. I still can't believe he is in KUBUR already. But i know Allah is Maha Adil. Papa may be do a sin but i know he did a lot of nice things to people :) I have so many things to say. But the day before he dies, his eyes was soooo yellow. And he looks so sad and sick. And yet i am so lucky that i spend my day with him without going out, but what i hate is that i can't get my eyes off the internet and also the keyboard. I HATE MYSELF FOR DOING THAT like reallyyy!!!! But now i have to learn from my mistakes. All i can do now is that pray for him and hoping that he will be placed with orang2 yang beriman.

My dear arwah papa,

I am sorry for what i've done all along when you're alive. You've taking care of me since i was a baby and still sometimes i don't appreciate you. Eh no, i do appreciate you, like totally! But sometimes i just don't show it. I totally let the ego feelings conquer my heart. I should tell you that i don't like crying in front of people, especially families. I love you with all my heart and once again, i love you more than anything in this world papa. Your family and YOU has done a lot for me. Even sometimes you guys sometimes quite say something that might hurt my feelings but i still love you guys no matter what. Especially you papa, till now i don't believe you're gone.I miss you papa. Like i miss you so much, that my heart feels so pain cause i don't wanna make mama feel sad. Maybe i am overeacting but its because i've never loose someone i love so much. Like right now, i have to be ready no matter what. So papa, forgive me k ? I love you so much and i miss you too.

Thank you for everything ♥
You are the best!

2010-06-09T21:16:00.000-07:00

Kiss and Tell !

2010-06-08T08:22:00.000-07:00

Sunway Pyramid, ooo-yeaaaah!

Spend my time there with all lovable peopleeee ♥

Shafiqah,Yaya,Dolly,Imran and Izzat ! ♥♥

Its very teh awesomezxszxs ! Here is some pictures. And well, saw a hot guy! Dayumn xD

2010-06-06T04:13:00.000-07:00

Stop Attacking Gaza!

Okay to be honest, I am really scared to comment about this but i really need it to get out of my chest. And i know this won't help anything but i really do need to say something!

I don't know what "THING" that POSSESS all of the Israel-ians for attacking Gaza without MERCY-ness. I know they are trying to conquer all the "Arab's Land" but doesn't mean they have to start a very big war just for it. We could all live in peace and start sharing stuffs together :) But instead, they start a selfish WAR just to get what they want. I seriously think that they are out of control and need to look back at what they have caused. I just have no words to describe on how I feel sorry for the Gaza people and i just can't stand looking at people crying for help and kids dying of hunger. I wish i was that strong and brave to go there and help all of them but right now i know i am not, and the only thing i can do is express my feelings here. Actually i have this really angry unexplain feelings towards the Israel-ians but I'm just hoping for the best that they finally realize what they did is totally a BIG BOWL OF WRONG.

I don't know when finally PEACE could conquer this world. Hmmm, but good job for all the MALAYSIAN'S TEAM who is now helping the people in Gaza (Y) But heard a lot of news about them get caught by the Israel-ians and also them attacking out of the blue without passing through their territory :/ OMG! Seriously, that is so scary but alhamdulillah that ALLAH SWT protect them and all 12 or 13 of them are save to go. Gosh, i just wonder what happens if they don't let them go and just kill all of them just a second split. Like woah, they are so mean if like that.

Now all i hope is that they all realize something and start LOVING. Haven't they heard of the word, LOVE? or SHARING ? or most importantly PEACE ?!

Here's a song that i would totally agree. And i want to do a cover of me singing this song :)

Thanks for reading.
May Allah Protect All of you in Gaza ♥.

Yours sincerely,
Nini :)

p/s: i hate WARS!

2010-06-05T02:08:00.000-07:00

Burger King! And the Diet :)

2010-06-05T00:06:00.000-07:00

Orchard, Fareast Plaza.

Short story: I spend time with my sister Anirah Jamaluddin ♥ cause she is very kind on that day. She bought me a lot of stuffs. Thanks sister Love you! I mean it k? And met, Sharifah again :) And then saw Kak Malaqueeeee! But too bad no picture with her. And then the Sleeq! HAHA But i only got to take a picture with Alyph. It was a great day and then wait, i met Danish halfway to the Scape. We were like screaming HA-HA! :D And i ate fish & co with my sister before meeting Sharifah.Here is some of the picture from that day :)

But wait, i am so sorry. there is something wrong with the uploader. FUCKTARD.

I have been waiting for like....1 hour already and its still not loading yet so you know what, i will upload it when the time is right :)

Thanks for reading yaw. PEACE AND LOVE

2010-05-18T05:04:00.000-07:00

I just haven't met you yet!

You are so amazing cutester♥
If i could list out who actually made my day, you are gonna be the FIRST !
Wish i got to meet you real soon and take care.

Jangan nakal2 yachhh ? :D

2010-05-18T02:59:00.000-07:00

I ATE FAUZI RASSULL ♥

Look at you! So hot I am blinded

I wanted to do a picture of me eating Fauzi Rassull but i just don't have the time and a very good quality camera to take a picture of me. But i promise myself to do it :) He is so gorgeous and so much prettier than me. How can that be ?! I am a girl and he is so much prettier than me xD

But whatever it is, he is such an inspiration :) Love you Fauzi Rassull! Hope to meet you one day :) And take lots and lots of picture with you HAHAHA!

TAKE CARE BEAUTIFUL !!

2010-05-18T01:54:00.000-07:00

I find it hard to explain, but here it goes.

I just can't lie to you anymore. I have to tell you the truth. And now its not that i don't care if it hurts or not but i have to tell you one way or another.

Well first of all, you are a really great friend i can't deny it. You sometimes made my day and you always make me feel better. But it all stopped because i felt a little bit annoyed. Okay, here i go again, i lie. Its A LOT! I kinda feel insecure when you don't talk to me or i feel like you don't wanna talk to me but now i just feel nothing. I feel so annoyed and irritated. I don't know how to tell you that because im a nice person, i don't wanna hurt your feelings. And now that i don't talk to you that much anymore, i maybe gonna hurt you right now cause i've been feeling this way since like.... february i guess? I keep on telling you im busy im busy actually i was busy but i just felt like not talking to you because u keep on asking me stuffs and its just so annoying , like really.

I like being friends with you Nick. And i appreciate everything that you've done and that you actually told me you love me. But you gotta be kidding me right? You don't even know me that well. I feel so bad for writing this right now, but i just can't help it. If i dont talk things out, then it will stuck forever. Yes, i am willing to take the risk if you hate me after you read this. But hey im just being honest here. I will not love anyone as much as i love TOM. Yes Tom doesn't know that and probably he don't love me back.But loving him has made me smile :) Like really. He don't hurt me anyway. Not saying you hurt me, but you make me feel so angry sometimes.

I am so sorry Nick. You are a nice friend, and really i appreciate everything but i just can't feel the same way. I can't force myself to love you, even if i did. I don't deserve you, and YOU DESERVE BETTER.

Take care, and i hope you understand. Probably this is only 1/4 of what i wanna say but i just feel so BASFSBDTFS right now. So yeah, say hi to your mum.

Much love,

nini

2010-05-14T04:41:00.000-07:00

I don't hate you but i hate what you've become.

You are not the first, but i care for you. U UNGRATEFUL MOFO'S!

2010-05-08T18:54:00.000-07:00

Happy Mother's Day To All Mothers Out There!

Especially for my mum, Rohani Rabi ♥

I am out of letters to type.Well first of all i wanna say I love you ibu for what you've done to me all this while when im alive. I love you so much (: Not saying i am dead now, but you've sacrifice everything just to make me happy.Yes sometimes i showed you i dont appreciate but deep down inside, i appreciate everything you do. You are my bestestestest friend i ever had! You are like a flower that blooms beautifully everyday! I am sorry if i ever made u sad, and most probably im gonna make u sad again, you know that i don't mean it. Sometimes i just can't control my angers. But i still love you mum. I miss you even when im out with my friends, i do think of you although i am out having fun with my friends. You are my mum no matter what. I am still going after you if you leave me. Or even if im mad at you, im still gonna talk to you and love you. I know when i kiss you , i kiss the rough way and u get all annoyed. But its because i just love you ibu thats why i kiss you (: I will get the oppurtinity to do it while i can :)

You are the reason why i still stand up perfectly because u took care of me. u feed me and u do everything for me. I am so lucky to have a mum like you ;) I am so happy that GOD made you as my mum. I can't imagine my life without you. Gosh, i can't stand the pain i guess. I love you every second of my life. YOU are my mum and i promise to be a better person when i grow up. I have so many things to say but probably it will take so long to write. So here it goes,

I love you Ibu! Happy Mother's Day.

p/s: sorry if i didn't buy you any presents. But i still love you!

AND GOSH I HATE SCHOOL D: HAHA

2010-05-08T08:25:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time I was falling in love ,
But now I'm only falling apart

Seriously you are my first obsession.

You are the only artist "crush" i ever had in my life.I know its crazy to say that, but just can't help it.Probably im not the only person who feel this way, but i know what im feeling right now is sincere.How can i love someone who doesn't even remember i existed.I blew my chance like totally.Everyone was happy to get their autographs but at that point i was just too stunt and starstruck by his perfect face.I just don't know why i was so depressed the day i met him for the first time.I thought I would be so damn happy but instead i was crying after that:/ Yeah u can call me dumbass or whatever shit, but i have my own reason why i cry.

Loving you is so much better than loving the person infront of me.I was totally in front of you but im too busy trying not to cry in front of you.I feel so stupid and
dumb.I know this is all a fantasy. All the movies giving real hope when there is actually no hope.Reality check (!)I am not blonde, i am not white and i am not pretty. I just want a conversation with you.You see how pathetic i sound just to want a conversation with you.Bragging about things that had past,but the "things" actually scars me for life.I've never thought this day would come and i don't feel like I've actually met you already. It feels like you're a robot thats alive.

I wanna stop talking about this.Its so stupid.If Tom ever read this, he'd probbaly go all. "Ahhh! She's just a normal fangirl who talks nice thing about me when she doesn't even know shit about me". L O L xD but not saying Tom is a bad person by saying that. But might never know, and you know what... what makes me think that he will ever find this damn blog. HAHAHA probably it'd be the worst blog he have ever read in his whole entire life. Whatever it is, i wish you happily ever after Tom. I don't wanna say i love you easily because talk and words is cheap. But i do.

I got so many things to say,but it is just so painful.

Can you hear me screaming from the top of the world?
I am such a sad sad sight :/

2010-04-30T00:03:00.000-07:00

TOKIO HOTEL IS IN MALAYSIAAAAA!!!!!!!!

I GOT THE TICKETS TO THEIR CONCERT. THANKS BEH!

ICH LIEBE TOKIO HOTEL

UND TOM KAULITZ ! ♥

2010-03-28T05:33:00.000-07:00

My life would suck without you :(

TOTALLY SUCK.

AND NOW I AM SUFFERING ALONE.

LISTEN TO ME, I LIKE YOU VERY MUCH.

2010-03-25T23:15:00.000-07:00

I can't fight this feeling ANYMORE !

Mr.Apple :(

2010-03-25T23:07:00.000-07:00

You will always be my endless LOVE,

2010-03-25T03:10:00.000-07:00

Glee Fever!

I am soooooooooo in love with Glee. Especially with Lea Michelle aka Rachel Berry because she got a beautiful voice .Gosh, i wish i was born to have that kind of voice.But i am thankful that i can actually sing too xD Anyway,the reason why i watch Glee its because its about musical.They sing and dance, how i wish my lame school create a Glee Club.If they really do a Glee Club,i'd be the first person who sign up for it.

Not only that,but when i see Rachel Berry, she kinda reminds me of me.Yes i know she is so much beatiful-er and she can sing very well but there's something about her that reminds me of me.Well let me list it out, she have a crush on Finn,she loves singing,she is sometimes selfish,she is sometimes nice.Okay well, i don't know how to explain it, but naaah forget it.Anyway,i would be really happy if i really have friends like in Glee. I mean i have a really nice bestfriend,but you know i want new friends too.Alaaaa, you know what i mean.It'd be very fun if i have a gay bestfriend,and oh gosh get to sing along together thru hard and happy times. U know!Well the show is really addictive. You guys should watch it and feel the magic while watching it.

Thanks for reading(: And the reason why also i watch Glee its because,"he" watch glee too! ♥ I know hahahaha xD

2010-03-13T02:14:00.000-08:00

Don't stop Believing!

I miss YOUR smile, I miss YOUR laugh, I miss YOUR sillyness,I miss LOOKING into your beautiful eyes.I miss LOOKING at you.

I can't believe I finally fall for you.(silently at least)I hope you didn't notice! But i am dying here waiting for u to come online and talk to me.I wish by not texting or calling you will make it not obvious that i like you.But really , I am missing you badly and dying silently. But it won't make any difference if you know i like you its like.. what are you gonna do about it? Right? HAHA! Obviously.

I wish you know that i want you to be my Finn. I know its crazy and so fantasy. But this is what exactly happening to Glee. You are never gonna leave your crush and go to a bimbo like me.But I am happy we are close as friends (: I will cherish it every moment.Do you know how much you mean to me?You are so cute that i feel like telling you to the face that i like you not because you're cute like an angel, but its because you showed to me you care about me. You even think I'm cute and there's nothing wrong with my face.I am happy that you are near to me, but deep down inside, you are really far to reach out. I just don't know why. You're so hard to figure out.

Sometimes you show you kinda like me, but at the same time you don't. I can feel the spark, but at the same time. I don't think there's a spark there. Or maybe I am just hallucinating? Or maybe I'm in loveeeeeeee and blind?This is so typical right?

Me being in love its not the first time. But you are one special dude.I'll never ever let you go. Of course, i want US to stay as friends although one day you might know i like you . YOU LIKING ME ITS LIKE A BIG NO NO :D Look at the bright side, you are still my friend and alive :D

2010-03-08T05:40:00.000-08:00

Everything about you invites me in.

Oh gosh D: Every single time i see him,i fell for him even much deeper. Something about him that invites me in.Like his smile, his face even his voice. I don't know why!I feel so messed up yet so in love. Sometimes he shows me a good sign, sometimes he shows me bad signs. Well most of it is bad. Ugghhh i don't know! He is like my drugs already, drugs that he don't even know that i want to have everyday of my life ... at least for now. I am trying to read his mind, trying so hard that i think i'm too much! I think i should put him away, and let go of it. its not like im dead! WAIT IM DEAD INSIDE D: noooooo!!

I like you, yeah .. i like you.

2010-03-01T23:59:00.000-08:00

I'm so right yet so wrong (:

Hello bloggers! :D HAHAHA , i don't know why i got the mood to like blog about something here D: Weird huh? Okay so.... i wanna talk about myself. I am so complicated and stupid. I don't know what i want. Can i fall in love with someone else when I'm with someone else?I'm scared to open it here D: But i can't help it. I just wanna tell the whole world.

Whatever ! Think whatever you want. I don't care :D Because i got some people who understands me.I'm just bored of this.Lol!How am i suppose to escape from this? Tell me how?I feel so right yet so wrong because i am WRONG! D: falling for someone i don't expect to like also.

Yesterday was talent time. Omg :O I was singing alone and Acapella. I was shaking like hell, obviously i didn't won and obviously i was like an idiot infront of many people. But luckily a lot of people leave D: Because, i don't feel go about singing alone and worst! Without music! But whatever, at least i tried my best. LOL! I was surprise that some of them can sing well. But that nice , but i think the best was Afiq,Bella and Syafiq. I think the girl who sings Brick by Boring Brick has a nice voice (Y) She looks like Hayley William too. And Nyny , she played keyboard. And its really good. And Hasif and Shaqif (Y) won second place. Wow congrats, you both deserve it! I mean they have a great voice :D I'm not that good because i'm sick and wasn't prepared. But i know i am better than that. Its okay! Low profile heheheheheh xD

Why is your face always on my mind. Even your beautiful smile.

Why do i have this strange feelings towards you?

We're not the same, but this is almost impossible !

Impossible! WHAT THE HELL is wrong with me?!

I'm having cough and flu.Its really bad,really really bad! D:

OKAY HAVE FUN U GUYS,

2010-02-17T17:17:00.000-08:00

Once upon a time , there live a beautiful girl name Aryni. But she have a very complicated life which obviously is not the only person whose dealing with it. HAHAHAHAHA.

Hello blogger, hahahaha! I'm joking about the beautiful part tho.Well right now, i am at Singapore! Againnnn , i know! I wanna cherish every moment i have in Singapore right now. I don't want to miss Singapore badly after i leave. Hmm well, i have so many things to talk about seriously! I don't even know where to start, BUT i think i am going to start on the day where I'm attached (: How about that? Oh before i start anything, thanks for reading aiteee??

12/2/10-Happy Birthday my beloved sister ,ANIRAH! ♥. Aaaah i can't believe it! She is 18 years old! OLD ALREADY! MUAAHAHAHAHAHA.Oh and Happy 5monthsary to Shafiqah and Apek (: MAY YOU GUYS BE TOGETHER TILL FOREVAAAA! And, that day also... i hang out with my dearest Iman,Marina and also Fatin :D It was a blast. Hmmmm, i really had a great day on that day. And i got to know.. i have to go Singapore. Weeee~

17/2/10-Which was yesterday. WAS A BLAST TOO! I didn't know its gonna be that fun alright. HAHAHAHAHAHA, it was pretty random thanks to my beloved cuzzie Era Sayur-i ♥ HAHAHA, she brought Fidaiy,Syazwan,Hamka,Maneck and Raudhah. But i didn't really hang out with Raudhah because she left damn early. Just a few steps to the interchange and then gone! HAHAHA. But its okay, at least i got to meet her:D Miss her tho. And after that left me ,era, fidaiy,syazwan,hamka and maneck. We lepak at tampines void deck near to Tampines Primary School. Omg! I miss that school ): Anyways, we were talking and laughing and singing and OMG it was just feckin hilarious throughout the whole journey. We sit at the void deck and then Syazwan left because he got headache.. and then left me,era,fidaiy,maneck and hamka. Still the fun ain't over yet man.MANECK is very disgusting! But im fine with it. They all have a very dirty mind but not in the bad way lah! hahaha i guess.. Hmmm, well it feels like i've known all the boys like forever.. but not really except for Fidaiy, because he is my ex-tps friend and still going on..weeehooooooo~ ,me loikeeeh. He is still short and just slightly a bit taller than me. But still he is soooo cute~ HAHAHAHAH !! Anyway, after lepak-ing we all go Tampines Mall and went for the bathroom , and Maneck left after that. And then left me,era,fidaiy and hamka. HAHAHA, one by one go home. After that we all go to Bedok. Which i have no ideaaaa whyyy~ maybe eating.. yeahhh. and then.. era left me!! So left me fidaiy and hamka. HAHAHAHAH funneh sia. The fun aint over yet mayne! hahahaa. We all ate at Long John Silver. Emmm yummeh! And they told me i got a humongous BOOBS. what the feck man. they just can't get over it! PFFFTTT!!!!! ahahaha, and then lepak again at void deck , which i don't know where it is. But its a very nice place to lepakkkkk. Hhaha. And then.. i had to go Buangkok , so i go Tampines with Hamka and Fidaiy's house is already at Bedok, so yeah. And awww, i got to hug small little fidaiy. hahaha he still havent change that much. HAHAHAHAA ! But naah whatever. Then it was just an unbelievable thing that at the end of the day, i got stuck with Hamka! HAHAHA, both attached man. HAHAAHAA, funneh rite?? :D but yeah i wanna thank you ALL for making me happy yesterday. Its been awhile since i had that much fun unless if im with Shafiqah . thanks ♥

And I MISS MY BESTFRIEND SHAFIQAH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

byyyyeee tooodles.xx

2010-01-05T02:53:00.000-08:00

Hey "stephen",

since no one will be ... u know... reading my blog anymore. So i think i should upload this picture (:

Hey"stephen"I know looks can be deceiving but i think your smile is very cuteeee !

I can give you HUNDRED reason..(i guess) why i should be the one u choosee !

2010-01-02T19:38:00.000-08:00

I am sick now ):

Okay not really that sick but I'm having a bad cold, thanks to SHAFIQAH (:

Well, and thanks to Senna too for calling me yesterday night. I feel much better you know ! And you can stop calling me LILKIM (:

Its so weird how his name is everywhere in my toilet. And NO , i didn't write his name but it is already on the sink.It is funneh (: I'll show you the picture. AND, OMG ! I have school tomorrow . FUCK SCHOOL! HAHAHA , i don't like school ): But nevermind, i shall bring the happiness in school again ... I GUESS. HAHA

okay toodlessz~

MUAHAHAHAHAHHAAAAAAAAAAA

2010-01-01T02:02:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEWWW YEAAAAAAAAH !

OMG IT IS 2010 !!

Hey can u believe it ? Its 2010 people, 2010. Time flies so fast that i don't even realize that school is re-opening. FUCK . I HATE. SCHOOL! HAHAHA but whatever it is, i want to wish all of you Happy New Year and i hope you will have a pleasant year this year :D Weeeehoooooooo !

To all my loved ones, you guys are awesome ! Love you !

2009-12-18T04:28:00.000-08:00

Hey blogger !

Omg, its been so long!I didn't post up anything.Seriously , not only here but also Tumblr.

Hmmmm, i am going singapore tomorrow for 2 weeks.Weehooooooo !

And i am single again(: I feel more free and don't feel bad anymore.I think i'm not ready to be in a relationship with anyone. Its better to be single than cheating on someone else. And 24 December is the PMR results. I can't believe it ! This is so weird, i feel so scared and feel like shitting too!

And, about my new home ! It is fine and nice, and comfy ! And, i met some people. Lutfi and Fahmi . And guess what,syimir is my neighbour (: i am so glad he lives near me! I miss him so much xDD

Oh and afif came to malaysia again to visit shafiqah of course. But he also visited my place too! They both slept my house and we got some kinda movie marathon*roll eye* And, the next day we went Tanjung because Shafiqah and I decided to bring Afif to our favourite place(: haha xDD

And i am going to miss that silly girl xD And, i miss eleena too ! She is off to penang.

And i miss NELLYSHA ! Omg , i hope she still remember me.What is she doing now, i am just wondering ! :D

Hmmmm, tonight my sister ,a'at family and kak arni's family is coming to my place. They wanted to go Seremban and PutraJAYA! Goodluck and i can't wait for them to come:D hehe xDD

Okay , i'llstop here (: Bbyebye!

AND I CUT MY HAIR !

2009-11-22T05:32:00.000-08:00

Hello Bloggers!

I'm back (: Not really back, but I will try my best to update new stuffs here.Tumblr is so addictive.Seriously and you all should try it (: I have a twitter but still i don't know how the hell to use it.But who cares, well I am right now 1 month plus with my boyfriend.I can't believe it.HAHA. And i kinda miss school for some weird reason. Maybe a temporary feelings for this holidays. Oh yes, talking about holidays i am like no life right now. I mean i have but you know i don't do much activity. I am planning to like cut my hair after this.But i don't know which way . But i am planning to keep it long too (: I will just decide on my own (:

Hmmm, i am still hoping i could meet TOM KAULITZ ): I'm afraid that if i want anything too much , it'll mean i'll never have it.So close but far.

Oh, and i am waiting for my PMR results. Ooooh shit, i don't know how much i'll get because i keep on having dreams that i will fail my geography :/ I hope it will not come true. Oh and talking about i hope it will never come true, i am also moving to a new house at Sunway Kayangan. Well, that house is pretty big and nice too. But i will still love my bukit jelutong house. Its like big and cozy (: but its okay maybe i will try comforting myself with my new house ):

Okay toodles people xx

2009-10-29T01:47:00.001-07:00

HELLO BLOGGERS.

I NOTICE THAT I'VE BEEN NOT BLOGGING FOR SO LONG D:

i am sorry D: Because i am lazy to do so ): Hmmm, anyway follow me on tumblr if you have one :D hehehheehehe, anyways . My life is doing great.

Im going to be 15 in another 2 days (:
Sooo happeh ♥

And im already officially with Helmi, wait that was a long time ago story, but he is already my boyfriend. so yeaa xD

2009-10-13T06:43:00.000-07:00

MORE ACTIVE ON TUMBLR LA!

http://arnjackson.tumblr.com

2009-09-25T20:42:00.000-07:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN ♥

Wow, time flies soooo fast and i can't believeee hari raya just past like that. But its okay (: All i know, that i have a pleasant time in SINGAPORE (: HEHEE, come let me show you why :D

WEEEHOOOOOO ♥ , love all my cousins.
So to all the people i love, sorry for hurting u guys.whether i accidentally or purposely okay ? :D love u all.

2009-09-16T02:31:00.000-07:00

HARI RAYA IS COMING!

Hey people. Oh gosh, i've been busy lately.I don't online that much.I mean i do,but don't have the time to post stuffs.And, another 3 days ! Raya is coming (: I can't wait.This year the whole family will be white and orange i guess. PMR is also coming soon, but for the mean time i don't want to think about it.It's bad for my health :P HAHA.

And shafiqah ain't single babe.She is with Afif(:HAHAHA can't believe it right?But whatever! And this is just a quick post.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY BESTFRIEND

, shafiqah othman hamzah .

And HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MIYAVI ♥

Alright that's all. Byebye!

2009-09-11T08:21:00.000-07:00

THIS IS REAL, THIS IS ME

I know, this is so suddenly to talk about "this is real , this is me".But here im going to talk about how this guy, my senior,is being too superficial about how i look in pictures and in school with tudung. I don't get it! Why he have to choose friends with good looks.He thinks that his hot? Ughh please, i told him that his hot its because im being nice.Yes, he is goodlooking but with that face doesn't suit the behaviour.How dare he judge me right before knowing me that well. Here is what i think , stupidbitch!

WHAT MAKES YOU THINK THAT YOU ARE THAT PERFECT TO SAY THAT I'M NOT YOUR TYPE, WELL BOY YOU ARE THE ONE WHOSE NOT MY TYPE. YOU'RE NOT THE TYPE OF FRIEND I NEED TO BEGIN WITH.

He said, he is symphathy of me that's why he doesn't go offline while im talking and just take the fact what he said, well he can't take the fact he is a jerk. Who only think about looks! You know, people here who read my blog. You guys should becareful of people who only think about looks. By saying no mood to talk to you because of how u look, is really stupid! If you are already like that, you can't do anything. Its because God already create you like that.And don't let people like this conquer your feelings even u have feelings towards him.I mean, yes maybe im talking about myself, but im just telling what i feel inside. That kind of person, doesn't have to have a friend, or someone to love in life.They only think about looks looks looks, which pretty obvious will not really make them happy.And its not worth it to be sad of a guy who doesn't even know who he is, or what his talking about.The fact is, he thinks that his standard is high.And what makes you think , that you are also a high-standard for girls?

Yes, i may be one of the girl who fetish guys like you before knowing your true color.But after, knowing your true color it makes me feel like YOU ARE THE REMPIT one, not me.Although i may look hideous or ugly or like a minah rempit in school, but i don't have the soul of a rempit.You are the one who has a soul of a rempit, who think that you are one of the bestest column in school, since i told you that you are hot. Please, im just being nice. And, you are a horny bastard! If you can't take the fact how people is , how people look like, what also makes you think that people can accept you for who you are?!You may look very handsome on the outside, but inside you are not even handsome to begin with. Alaaa actually, stakat muke kau aku boleh dpt kat tepi jalan. You don't even know anything about me! GET IT?! If you can judge me that quick, meaning i can judge you too! You're such a disgrace to ur own gender and you are such a disgusting creature.

THIS IS REAL, THIS IS ME
. SO FUCK OFF , if you can't take the fact for who i am
YOU STUPID SUPERFICIAL BITCH.

I hope what you do, will make u feel a better person.

YOU ARE AHMAD NASRI MUST DIE!

you don't know anything about me
I try to play nice
I want to be in your game
The things that you say
You may think I never hear about them
But word travels fast
I'm telling you to your face
I'm standing here behind your back
If you could read my mind
You might see more of me than meets the eye
And you've been all wrong
Not who you think I am
You've never given me a chance

2009-09-09T03:20:00.000-07:00

JUSTIN BIEBER,

Who is that fellow chap? Well that guy is a singer.I caught him on tv the other day in channel V.Haha, it's weird cause i feel like i know him somewhere and then suddenly i realize before he was that famous, he was a youtuber.He sang very well.The first video i saw was when he sang the song 'WITH YOU'. It is really nice ,you should listen to it.And then i saw his video ONE TIME.That is when i think he was pretty good! He is beautiful, but i don't think im his fan.But im in love with his smile ,hair and voice.Yes, his voice is beautiful (: So check it out yaw!

I think he is 15 years old. I don't know thats what i heard.And check out his new video.I wish i was in that video (: But i know, his another dream that will never COME TRUE! Ooops, sorry there is no embed on the official video. But listen to the music aite(:

Oh yes,this is really weird! But shafiqah is in love♥ HAHA !
Okay, so im in love tooooooo, with my senior i guess? But it's too early to be in love with him or to like him.But he is really nice and sweet.Yes, i just want to have him as a friend.That's the way it is.Better and no fighting i guess? It is really weird because i don't expect that i would actually even talk to him :P Weird right? I mean he talked to me first :D But that doesn't mean im lucky or special so whatever.

AND GOODLUCK TOO MALAQUE MAHDALY,

my long lost friend (: Well she is more like a sister, but i don't want her too think that i only talk about her when now she is popular.I can't believe it she made it, and im proud of her ! So stay tune on Singapore Idol , watch it and vote for her !!!

She is really beautiful and talented.I didn't know she can sing ,and i didn't know she really made it to Singapore Idol :D Woooooooohooooo! Love it, goodluck to her.Love her too :D

Okay so, I don't care if she read this or not! But yea, that bitch HEEYA,i just got to know she is really a real bitch. you know why? Well i can't elaborate here.I don't care, but it is not nice to do so (: So yes she is a real BITCH! But sorry, i have a life. SO FORGET ABOUT IT!

School was okay (: But i feel like there's no need to go school! HAHA, it was really bored! AND PMR IS NEAR! HAHA WISH ME LUCK BABES :D hahahahahaahaaaaa xD So bye :D

2009-09-01T06:10:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday To

The Sweetest yet Cutest Twin Evaaaaaa♥

I know i've not been updating alot of stuffs here. I have no time and i don't really have an internet right now.Believe me , right now is just my luck ;) Thank god! Anyways, i know that was a really sudden wish. Its a wish for Tom & Bill Kaulitz from the band Tokio Hotel. Yes , i'm being a fangirly now but can't help it ! I guess me and shafiqah is really into this stuffs. From what i see,they've grown up so fast (': and they are like 20 already! Not a teenager anymore. I wish they are still teenagers. I'm so sad, because this is the only way for me to wish them. I wish i could call them, but too bad i guess its just not my luck to get through them.They are just too famous.Of course, i don't wanna be selfish , but maybe i'll be forever a fangirl out of millions other fangirl.. but believe in miracles (;

Look at Tom and Bill they are 20 now :') And their wish come true. I mean if they can be famous, that means I can be famous too (: Okay im crapping now.But i wish i could contact them in any way. But i wish all the best too both of you and i will always support you guys all the way and love your music soooo much!

Okay enough with fangirly stuffs. I can sometimes be crazy thinking how to find a way to call them.Well this miss little shafiqah did it without me, what a nice STUPID bestfriend. haha joking, i guess. And, i just got back from Singapore. I mean last week la. I just have no time to keep it updated. But then, i had a great time meeting Afif and his friends,Atiqah and Amy ♥ Oh great, now I feel like going back to Singapore. I spend my whole day with Afif actually because throughout the whole day , we both are always there except for people who keep on coming in and hangout with us. Lol xP and he is such a gentleman (': Oh yes, We, Afif Me and Atiqah berbuke kat Pizzahut(Marina) It was really a great time ! I missed Amy too but unfortunately, she have to leave because her dad forgot to bring his keys, so his stuck outside the house! HAHA, lol. And then, i was walking in the rain with Afif .. great times D: hahaha .But serious. he is such a sweetheart.

2009-08-23T19:10:00.000-07:00

To William Allen Gonzalez,

I don't know if you read this, but whatever. I just want to express it here.

did u block me ? because of what i said yesterday ?
You are so mean. All this while, when you are sad about how Janine ditches you i was there for you and i gave u hope. And now, for what i just said you ditch me? I can't believe you are doing this to me William. Gosh. You know i still keep our first conversation and you said, you promise you won't ever ditch me, but look what you've did. You totally ditch me.

And i was your first friend in myspace, and you used me to get Janine remember?

When i know the truth you used me to get Janine, you know how sad i was when u told me that?! I thought you'd really care for this friendship, but you don't care at all. Since, you have so much friends in your myspace, now you've forgotten about the friend whose always been there for you.

I knew you are too good to be truth. I knew one day this would happen. Just because of that girl, you're being selfish.You don't even care about me anymore. I thought you're nicer than Nicholas but, you are just the same. The same like the other guys who ditches me.And you know why im being harsh, cause you don't even talk to me anymore. You don't even talk to me on yahoo and you don't even leave me comments. And, now your sunshine, MS JANINE, added you back, you totally forgotten about me.I thought you were different than the others, but you are not.

WHATEVER IT IS, happy with your life. you don't care about me and u don't even appreciate me , why should i care about you ditching me right? Yea, okay (:

Have a great life and hope that your sunshine will want you okay ?

GOODBYE!

And i still can't believe, he just did that.
KENAPELA MATSALLEH BASTARD FUCK?

2009-08-23T07:14:00.000-07:00

THIS IS FOR MY EYE CANDY !(since he got a girlfriend already )

Hey, hey, you, you, I don't like your girlfriend
No way, no way, I think you need a new one
Hey, hey, you, you, I could be your girlfriend

Hey, hey, you, you, I know that you like me
No way, no way, you know it's not a secret
Hey, hey, you, you, I want to be your girlfriend

You're so fine, I want you mine, you're so delicious
I think about you all the time, you're so addictive
Don't you know what I can do to make you feel alright?
Alright, alright, alright

Don't pretend, I think you know I'm precious
And so yeah, I'm a hey, hey princess
I can tell you like me too and you know I'm right
I'm right, I'm right, I'm right

She's like so whatever
You could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that's what everybody?s talking about

Hey, hey, you, you, I don't like your girlfriend
No way, no way, I think you need a new one
Hey, hey, you, you, I could be your girlfriend

Hey, hey, you, you, I know that you like me
No way, no way, you know it?s not a secret
Hey, hey, you, you, I want to be your girlfriend

I can see the way, I see the way you look at me
And even when you look away I know you think of me
I know you talk about me all the time again and again
And again and again and again

So come over here and tell me what I wanna hear
Better yet, make your girlfriend disappear
I don't wanna hear you say her name ever again
And again and again and again

?Cause she's like so whatever
And she could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that's what everybody's talking about

Hey, hey, you, you, I don't like your girlfriend
No way, no way, I think you need a new one
Hey, hey, you, you, I could be your girlfriend

Hey, hey, you, you, I know that you like me
No way, no way, you know it's not a secret
Hey, hey, you, you, I want to be your girlfriend

In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger
'Cause I can, ?cause I can do it better
There's no other, so when's it gonna sink in?
She's so stupid, just what were you thinking?

Hey, hey, you, you, I don't like your girlfriend
No way, no way, I think you need a new one
Hey, hey, you, you, I could be your girlfriend
No way, no way

Hey, hey, I know that you like me
No way, no way, you know it's not a secret
Hey, hey, I want to be your girlfriend
No way, no way, no way, no way

2009-08-23T07:02:00.000-07:00

=

WE, ARYNI AND SHAFIQAH, LOVES YOU ALOT !

WE ARE SUCH FANGIRLS,

BUT HEY IT'S NOT WRONG TO DREAM

OF A PERFECT GUY, RIGHT?

2009-08-22T07:06:00.000-07:00

Hey yaw, it's been awhile i didn't post up anything.
Im lazy to do so, soooooo..... i just shall keep it to myself. Alot of stuffs happen (:
And i damn lazy to tell . I don't even know where to start.

Oh yes, i flunk my maths (: I pass my science (:

Great ! And,

TOM AND BILL KAULITZ IS FREAKING HOT (:

Wanna know more, go to shafiqah's blog. Alot of stuffs happen.
And, i take a picture with my eye candy (: He looks damn weird in the picture,
but i dont freakin care(:

Happy birthday to Sharifah Radziah & Selamat Berpuase people !
Today is like the first of day of bulan ramadan, and i pray for me and shafiqah so that she can follow me to Singapore this MONDAY! Amin :D

I LOVE MY BESTFRIEND (: AND I DEDICATE THIS SONG TO HER (:

I love this song and the lyrics is really cool ! One and the same-Selena&Demi

You come from here
I come from there

You rock out in your room
I rock a world premiere
We're more alike than
Anybody could ever tell
(Ever tell)

Friday, we're cool
Monday, we're freaks

Sometimes we rule
Sometimes we can't even speak
But we can get up and
Let loose and LOL

It may seem cliche
For me to wanna say
That you're not alone
(That you're not alone)

And you can call i'm cool
But it's a simple fact
I got your back
(Yeah, Yeah, Yeah)

Chorus
'Cause we're one and the same
We're anything but ordinary
One and the same
I think we're almost lengendary
You and me the perfect team
Chasing down the dream
We're one and the same

I'm kind of like you
You kind of like me

We in the same song
And a different key
It's got a rhythm
Than you and me
Can get along
(Get along)

It may seem cliche
For me to wanna say
That you're not alone

And you can call i'm cool
But it's a simple fact
I still got your back

Chorus:
'Cause we're one and the same
We're anything but ordinary
One and the same
I think we're almost lengendary
You and me the perfect team
Shaking up the scene
We're one and the same

'Cause we're one and the same
We're anything but ordinary
One and the same
We're so good moment momentary
Cause we're one yeah, Yeah, Yeah
'Cause we're one
Anything but ordinary
You and me the perfect team
Chasing down the dream
Oh, You and me the perfect team
Shakïng up the scene
We're one and the same

And Lo Que Soy by Demi Lovato, it's not cheesy like the other version. Its nicer like this (:

She really looks like a princess (:

And you guys should watch this (:

2009-08-12T07:45:00.001-07:00

MY EYE CANDY!

Okay this is totally weird, but this is the first time i would tell you about my eye candy in school.Well most of my "eye candies" will be my seniors.So this is a really random post, since i can't really study for my maths, so i decided to kinda like post this about HIM :D Gosh, if you really often read my blog, i think you will say that I'm a girl who changes guy everyday.But hey, that's not true this is just normal crushes not more than that.But gosh, i think im falling for my eye candy.

I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM.

Okay there is a reason why i post this blog.It is because that something happens in school today.Gosh,i don't know why im so happy over something that is really really small, but hey if you were in my shoes, you would feel the same thing.Okay here it goes.Ermm,my eye candy is my senior called Marshall.(okay,since he doesn't read this i dont mind putting his name)I've been admiring him like 2 months ago.But that 2 months ago,i didn't really bother to like look forward to talk to him or whatever, cause i think it is just a normal eye candy.Suddenly today,it get abit overboard.You know i am just curious what his name is.I don't know his name first ,till today.Iman asked him his name and oh gosh , he asked my name too (: At first i thought he only asked Iman's name but he asked mine too :DDD YEAY ! And you know what is the best part?

He called out my name, when i pass by him after schoool.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH.

Okay this is the best :D And i don't know why.I keep on thinking about him.His eyes and face and whatever is just in my mind and eyes.Everytime i open the book , i will start thinking of him.Gosh, im so ridiculous and stupid.Why does he have to actually asked my name when im having maths paper tommorrow.I guess im going to flunk, but i promise myself too study hard for PMR. Of course, who doesn't right? Okay , erm i guess this is it(: I know this is random but,

HE IS FUCKING CUTE LA SIA! hehe
peace out home dawgs :D

2009-08-10T06:26:00.000-07:00

HISTORY AND MALAY PAPER !

Okay i still got time to online.But just for awhile.I just wanted to check all my emails and stuffs.Anyway, my paper is kinda hard.I mean i can do it but it is just hard.Argh,fucktard.But whatever.But im still soooo kinda wtf about history.

Why do we need to learn like in so much detail about History.

Yes yes, i know its important for us to like know how Malaysia and Singapore split up and bla3.But whatever la about those people's name we need to remember.As in the Malaysia History.Gosh, tmrw i have agama and english paper. So the malazsx to belajar man D=

Okay peace out home dawgs. Oh and this is random,

WHY IS OMER NOT MICHAEL'S SON?! ):

2009-08-08T20:04:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday SINGAPORE !

WOHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ! Singapore is 44 years old (:
Damn, i can't believe i am still devoted to Singapore. -,-

SO ALL THE SINGAPOREANS ,
MAKE SINGAPORE PROUD MAN.

peace out home dawgs (:

2009-08-08T07:32:00.000-07:00

WHY EXAM EXIST?

Okay this is so fucking bullshit.I hate exams and I still doesn't have the mood to get my eyes on my history text book.I still doesn't want to study! But i have too :/ Why man, why they force us to do so? ARGH.This thing is making me crazy and I think i should get tickets for the MTV WORLD STAGE by now.But too bad because i got an exam the next day.FUCKTARD!But to get what i want, i will try my best to score for every of my subject.Of course,here is the things i want after PMR:

- A camera/nikon.
- A new Sony Ericsson phone.
- A new laptop.
- $$$$$ money for prom and dress
- A new lots and lots of contact lenses
- Hair-treatment for my ugly hair.

Okay, and lots more.I just can't think of it right now.Because Im like thinking what if i don't score for my trials and my PMR.Dammit, im going to get NADA.Oh god, im getting sleepy now.Shit, i need to study! I need too.You know, i actually have the potential to study and all.But I think this is just my "prinsip" to study when the exams is coming,so that I might remember it more.I don't know i think it is generation:/ And, don't blame me if I don't score for my maths, it is generation too. Pfft, my dad! haha xD Sorry AYAH, i just have to tell them that you really suck in maths.HAHA, so if i don't score my maths that well i blame my dad. haha, funneh -,- It was just a joke of course.Oh god, i need to score fucktards man.

I DONT WANNA FLUNK!
I DONT WANNA FLUNK!
I DONT WANNA FLUNK!
I DONT WANNA FLUNK!
I DONT WANNA FLUNK!
I DONT WANNA FLUNK!
I DONT WANNA FLUNK!
I DONT WANNA FLUNK!
I DONT WANNA FLUNK!

Oh sorry , that was just a little reminder for me.
Wish me luck peeps!

2009-08-07T08:28:00.000-07:00

2009 National Day Parade Song

I am sad that I can't be able to celebrate NDP again and again):
4 YEARS STRAIGHT! It's okay, i think i miss Singapore too much!

And to that stupid fucker classmate of mine, AMIN

make fun of singapore all you want, but i'll prove to you that singapore is a much better country than malaysia!

Kau fikir kau bagus kepee nak kutuk2 orang?!Please, look at yourself.I bet if all of the Singaporean knows that you really insult Singapore, consperm you die! And one more thing, sure as hell, they say you are one piece of ugly shit.

Your face,eeeeeyerrrr so JASBFJBGFBAG!

2009-08-06T22:23:00.000-07:00

OMER JAMAL BHATTI

MICHAEL JACKSON'S SECRET SON?!:O

Okay, i just noticed that Mj's life is so much of a secret.HAHA!I mean look ,for example;People thought that he did nose job because he wants to,but actually that is not true.Like this,an unclear rumor that he got a 25 year old son.Issit true?I guess it is.He looks like Mj and blanket his last son.And he is very hot.ARGH.Another,jackson junior.SO HOT AND SO CUTE.But that unclear rumor is already true because Joe Jackson said that Mj had a one night stand with a Norwegian girl and they agree not to reveal whose Omer Bhatti's mother.And blanket's mother too.But their mother is not angry at all.

MJ IS SOOOO SCANDALOUS*horny face*

But at least, he loves children and responsible for those kids unlike some people,Don't even bother to take care of their kids properly.No offence.And i just realized that every woman who had sex with Mj gave away their child to him,and that is a very clever choice.But it's very sad that he is already dead.And i still can't get over it.I hate it man,seriously. Okay here is some pictures of Michael Jackson,Omer Bhatti and Blanket.

Family photo ,THE JACKSONS.Omer carrying Blanket.

Photo of MICHAEL AND OMER.

Sitting with the Jackson's on Mj's Funeral.

Omer And Michael ♥

LOOK AT OMER(on the first picture)AND BLANKET(second picture)!
SAME RIGHT?

And a wonderful picture of handsome OMER JAMAL BHATTI♥

2009-08-06T21:58:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOFIA!

It was Sofia's birthday yesterday.So my sister and her friends make a surprise party for Sofia at Secret Recipe.And pretty obvious we are sucks at hiding this plan.But awww, i hope Sofia likes it.There are Helmi,Aliff,Hariz,Naqib,Amalina,Nelly,Me,Shafiqah and Anirah(my sister). Lawls.I kinda enjoy my day yesterday!But it was really really tiring.After that,Shafiqah and I went to the park near my house and took alot of nice pictures.Gaaaah,im so sad i gotta meet Nelly just for awhile,but its okay and i miss her so much.At least i gotta meet her right? =D teeeeheee.Okay here are some pictures that i havent edit yet but nah its okay.For blog nevermind.

Happy Birthday Sofia♥

Oh chipmunk"VELU"

MOI OF COURSE.

And a very beautiful friendship♥

Hariz,Me,Amalina and Nyrah(secret recipe)

Balloons for Sofia (:

Hariz and Me at Tanjung Corner

Helmi and Me, so weird we are like wearing the same shirt.

I had a wonderful day yesterday.Oh gosh , and my trial is coming another 3 days.Wish me luck people.And i have few more post to blog about.Wait for it yeaaa.

2009-08-04T02:59:00.000-07:00

Ignorance.

Hey yaw readers! I came home late because i had TO go this Geography course.It's a seminar thing for my exam.Well maybe its kinda worth it,I GUESS? And erm, I'm like currently not liking someone.And that is a good thing.So that i can focus on my studies u know.I guess he still think that i like him.I don't wanna give hope anymore.It's tiring and stupid.I mean, i guess the whole"you are still young to be in love" is true.Because, maybe for me its true,for some they thing its stupid-,- But yeah,me myself is not ready for true relationship.I just don't know why I always imagining myself and my future boyfriend, for example .I always imagine us going out just two of us and what if something embarrassing happens?I can't take humiliation with guys.I don't know ,unless if that guy is my bestfriend.Yes,that i wont mind.But i don't know.Now the truth is out.I can't take HUMILIATION.Only the people who is really close with me and who really understands me ,know how i feel.So that kinda explain everything.And i easily get sick and tired of someone.Especially boys ,that already knew i like them.Some of them bragg,and sometimes i just don't like it.Its so just ARGH.I dont like okay.

Talking about i dont like.Now i hateeeeeeeeeee exams.I just got my exam schedule.Ugh,fuck!Maths is like the last.WHY WHY?! Why not the first.So that i won't be too scared to face the doom again.Lol wtf?And then history is going to be on MONDAY,IM NOT READY FOR THIS.And gosh,i need to study.But I didn't!Maybe im just not ready yet you know.Ahhhhh,why NOW?But insyallah i will get at least 3a's for this trial.Hope there's no FAILING AGAIN.I don't want to flunk again.If i flunk again, that means

NO PARTY NO MONEY NO NEW PHONE OR NO NADDAAAAA!

Shit,i seriously need to work this out.*whistling one corner* Okay okay , i study now la.Wait before i go study , i want to bath and clean up my bed.GOSH, its so not tidy.

PEACE OUT HOME DAWGS.
oh and bfore going i hope Amir buy me a hippie headband for me from SYDNEY.
I hope his journey to Sydney this Friday is save (: Amin.

And be pretty as TAYLOR SWIFT♥
Gosh i just love her, she so pretty
But i know i won't be pretty like her.

DREAM ON NINI!

NEW SKIN BABYYY!

2009-08-03T01:51:00.000-07:00

Thanks to my bestfriend Shafiqah (:,

She is the only person whose willing to change my blogskin (: Although she is sleepy or whatever she's doing.EXCEPT FOR THE PART,where she is talking to Chron. I guess *oops* Lol . Okay so, i have to get use with my new blogskin:D I think im going to love it.Anyways,i got few more days to my trial.Gaaah,stop reminding me people.Yes yes, I am going to study later.I know okay,i know how i study so whatever.Im scared of my maths actually.Come to think of it.It is not hard if you study,but it is hard of you do NOT study.I have to stay from the laptop for few days.I mean till my trials is OVER.NOOOOOO! I am not gonna survive this way.

TALKING about im not going to survive.I think i better study hard from today onwards.Cause when im like sitting on my jamban "shitting" i always think how am i going to cope all the studies and syllabus if I don't study now.I wanna do my best and i wanna get A's so that i can be a very clever clever person. OH WAIT, i am already clever but lazy to open books and read it. I am very organized if I have the mood to study,but if NOT then its a big No No.Oh and reply to shafi's blog.Yea,i kinda hate the WE DIE ON 2012 ! Gosh,because of that stupid prophecy scientist make, now everyone believe that DOOMSDAY is going to be at 2012.Argh.Fuck it man.

And if you really do think that 2012 is going to be Doomsday ,then why people still do SINS?!

BLA bla bla shit. Hello people, lesbiany and gaying thingy has already started from years years years and many years ago AND doing sex and all.Hello,sex are always bad okay but still people do it.Duhhh, u get what i mean? I don't know how to explain to you guys,but whatever i hate that byebyewedie on 2012. hahahaha xD

About school, awwwwww i spend time alot with Lephrecaun(: And just now last period is sivik.Well no teacher came in and Iman ,Lephrecaun and Nurin is playing this game,who ever throw the chalk in the small hole, wins.I mean its just for fun.At first,they three play without no one noticing.And then , when i came out Hasif followed me outside the classroom and then they were like playing that game.So i join in, and then suddenly half of the boys join in and played with US.Lawl.Its not easy to throw that chalk in to a small drain hole.Furthermore, we are like from the classroom and our class is like the highest level.It was fun. And Malek is soooo sweet.The first thing he did when he saw me was ,he went to my place and gave me one hershey kisses chocolates. Awwwww♥ Thank you very much ,Mr.Malek Fahd.

Oh yea, i think i wanna upload my class photo.I forgot to tell you guys that i got it already.Mine is big and everyone is like so kanchiong and snatching to see the pictures but that was last week i guess. Okay so , Im done here.

PEACE OUT HOME DAWGS (:

I fetish over guys like THE KAULITZ.

2009-08-02T03:49:00.000-07:00

Hoho, I don't know why im now drooling over Tom and Bill Kaulitz.
GAH.
They are super-hot. I don't know why now,but seriously they are so hoooot and cute.
I wish one of them is mine.But hahaha, soo not gonna happen mang. I wish sometimes fantasy is real,but come to think of it.Fantasy is only a fantasy (:

HERE'S MA BOYZ.

Aren't they just irresistable. Feel like touching them .
And just stand beside them.
ARGH.
why are they so hot?

Awww my brother Saiful (:

2009-08-02T01:29:00.001-07:00

i Wuffles my brother (':
SOMETIMES ONLY ! ha ha.

Stups Vids.

2009-08-02T00:45:00.000-07:00

What's up home dawgs! How are ya mang?
Okay first thing first, i got to talk to CHRON :D I'm so glad he did well for this NS thingy.I can't believe that Shafiqah survive talking to him on the phone although his voice is like MUMBLING,and fucktard. Oh and one more thing,I talked with all his PLATOONS(: Such an ass la Chron. He ask his friend to say this to me"NINI MAKAN BABI". Chron you are so lame. I'm glad Shafiqah notice it, if she doesn't,she must be really into you man.O.O

Oh well, on afternoon friday i thought of just staying at home since Qistina went to Shafiqah's house and i don't really bother to join cause I'm quite tired.And then around 4,Shafiqah and Qistina asked whether I want to join them walk to U8.So i just followed,cause I am damn bored although I'm tired.So i meet them at the slope, the usual place and then walk to u8 with a very hot weather.And guess what, we all wear BLACK. Hoooottt man, as in the weather of course not US.And short story, Qistina got to see all the FCUK-tards who always bother me and Shafiqah everytime we went to u8.Its a good thing though that she finally sees them.Oh yeaaaa Shafiqah and Moi, is soooo evol becausee we said to Naqib that Qistina likes him. EEEEEEEWW.Which is not gonna happen because EW, disgusting.And then we met Amir Hamzah because Qistina wants to meet him like desperately :D And then ,we kinda like hang out with him and he went to Shafiqah's house and met BABA and her uncle unties.. And wtf, Amir just molested BABY QISTINA'S face. hahahahahahahahaha xD HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA XD HE IS SOOO CUTE. And so emotionless -.- But whatever. I don't freaking care okay D: WHAT?! HAHAHA XD, okay so ermmmmmmm that night i slept Shafiqah's house and asleep when we watch RATU BUAYA PUTIH. Ugh,Shafiqah was asleep for the first time. STUPPIDD GIRLLLAIEIJISD. Okay can't really blame her because i also did it to her like more than 1 time :D ahahah xD

Yesterday which is Saturday, Shafiqah sleptover my house.So fair and square la :D We watch like 3 movies and its all fun :D ahah Kinda of la.Hmmmmm (: it was quite fun.We made a samsung fridge advertisement, i think shafiqah will upload it.So go watch it okay :D Wohoooo

PEACE OUT HOME DAWGS.
oh yea, trials coming D: fucktard.

2009-07-29T02:39:00.000-07:00

Im so sorry for not updating anything in my blog.I've been really busy and lazy to do so.
My exams is around g the corner within 10 days,I'm still not prepared. Haiz, I don't know what to do.I'm so sick of looking at my books and sick of school too.

Oh yeah talking about school, school was fine.As usual.Syaqif moved back to school.
WHAT A BADLUCK,joking ( i think) . Maths is getting complicated and more complicated.
And erm,i guess i need practice.

Chron is gone ): He went to NS for 2 weeks.And its so unfair that he only got to call Shafiqah and not me ): But whatever.I hope you do well there Brother.And u eat anot ah? I scared u get more anorexic than usual.But nevermind i pray you ALL the best :DHoho, you see you got such nice sweet pretty little sister xP LOVE YA CIBAI :D

As for my bestriend Shafiqah,we've been hanging out these days.Yeaa right. pfft.
She have trials and its gonna be my turn soon ): FUCKTARD AH EXAMS BEH.
i HOPE she scores ,like how she scores...... heart (: HAHA xD And, i wish her all the best. Well if you wanna know more information about us hanging out , go to her blog. She uploaded funny videos of us (': I can cry , because we are retarded.

MAYBE THAT'S WHY I LOVE HER SO MUCH :D

Gosh, i wanna kill her :DD Lawlz.

HELIUM HELIUM HELIUM &HEARTS;

BITCHES ARE SO OVER RATED.

2009-07-21T01:56:00.000-07:00

BITCHES GET OVER YOURSELF.

Gosh, I don't know why bitches exist in my school.So over-rated and so mean.
They think they are so beautiful that they don't even realize that the one whose not popular like them is much more beautiful.Why beautiful outside when you are not inside right?
i just don't know why you think you are so beautiful , when i only see you as a plain girl who have a very dirty heart. You and your friend can go to hell man.Putting videos on youtube and thinking you guys are hotstuffs and hanging out with bunch of immature girls who think they so "COOL" too. Damn, You guys must be a real dumbass. As far as i notice, no one likes you.Except for the people who really"knows" you and the guys whose into you.Or they are just blind.

Come on let me ask you guys a real question.
What kind of person would upload a video and talk shit about its own classmate and put it up on youtube

.Woah,its pretty obvious they need real LIFE.

But gosh, using the word Hotstuffs to you must be a really big crisis.
You are not even hot to begin with. EWWWWWWWWWW.
You are short,plump and so full of yourself. I wonder what people see in you.

Bitches are just soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo kjdnfjefbrhefbhrf.
No word to describe them. Ughhhhhhh

Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince.

2009-07-18T02:31:00.000-07:00

It was a great movie people.

This is sad because DUMBLEDORE DIES! Why why why?!
But whatever it is, you must watch it.

Well i watch it with Eleena and her parents.It is gold class.Wow for the first time.It was quite fun watching at gold class because it is really comfortable and its kinda big.Lol xP i sound so"JAKON", but hey whatever okay.I was kinda touched at the part where Hermoine was jealous because that weird Lavender girl kissed Ron.I don't know that part is like making feel so jealous too.It feel as though i know how Hermoine felt.HAHA XD Very pain.And the part where Ginny is kissed Harry Potter, that is so not romantic.I don't know i find Ginny like a boy.To be honest, she is not pretty at all. HAHA xP She looks retard when she ties Harry's shoe lace And Harry Potter looks so retard when Ginny feed him the cake.HAHA XD Okay sorry xP But the show is good.

DRACO MALFOY IS A HOTTIE !

Although he looks so like tired and droopy kinda boy in the movie this time, but he is hot.I don't know why.And hermoine is also effin hot. I kinda like the weird girl i forgot the name but yeah whatever. You guys should watch it.It is great (: But i hate the last part becauseeee DUMBLEDORE DIED. Okay dont remind me anymore D: I hate it PFFFT*

GRATEFUL.

2009-07-15T07:00:00.000-07:00

Don't you think?

Don't you think eyes are wonderful? Don't you think mouth are wonderful?
Don't you think ears and every part of your body are just wonderful to keep?

My point here is that, why are we so ungrateful of what he have?We,humans,have the same things.As in we have faces ears and everything that everyone have,is just that only our faces are different and genders too.Screw races now. Don't talk about it.Now what i'm going to talk about is, why we always go all like AM I BEAUTIFUL , AM I HOT , AM I HANDSOME?!

SCREW THOSE STUFFS MAN!

You know why this suddenly came up into my mind.Out of the blue, while im looking myself in the mirror and looking really close to my face.And GOSH, i just realized, don't you think every part of your body is just great to own?Without eyes, we can't look.Without ears, we can't hear.Without mouth,we can't talk.Without anything, you are NADA! NOTHING! So, im like thinking...Yes we may have different color skin and different looks.But i just think people are beautiful in their own way.People who deserves to be happy and who we should look up to is like Michael Jackson.Although, he does his nose and all his skin is all white.But all that happens for a reason.He wouldn't a nose job if he didn't broke his nose when he is doing his dance routine.Seriously.That is why he got his nose done.Okay so im here to talk about. Let's be grateful of what we have. We may not have perfect eyes,body and faces or looks..But that is how people live in this world.With different unique faces. I don't know why the word UGLY is in this world.I just wish everything in this world even the faces u think is UGLY is Beautiful. Its like that is how GOD created them :D

I sometimes doesn't like myself judging others. Its like its their face and looks, but why the hell i criticize them when it has nothing to do with my life. And go all asking Shafiqah, am i beautiful or not and am i good enough for Awie bla3. You know what, screw it! Gosh, this is what i have and this is what im going to be. As long as I'm being myself to the one i love most because if they don't know the real me they might be falling for the one that doesn't exist. You know what i mean (:

I WANT TO APOLOGIZE.

For the people who read this find it offended.Im so so sorry. I didn't mean anything, im just writhing whats on my mind right now.I just wanna share all of this to people who care about me (: I mean come on, sharing is caring. I just wanna tell my blog what i feel.This is a really random post. I don't know why the hell i even type this when i am very sleepy now D: GOSH! HAHA XD
AGAIN, im sorry if this things does hurt ur feelings.Sometimes i dont know how to explain what i i wanna tell in proper words D: SORRY !

nini ♥

MY SONG FOR YOU.

2009-07-13T23:59:00.000-07:00

I belong

As far as Im concern,
I never thought that i would found you,
Cause now you make me happy
and never down.

Though we're far apart,
I want you to know,
I always think of you,
and remembering you.

CHORUS:

Don't care what they say
Don't care what they think,
All i know is Im gonna get your Love
And i promise i'll cherish it.

Make it strong, Make it Better
Even if we are not together now,
Keep me close in your heart cause that is where
I BELONG

I will always lend a hand,
If you need any help,
I'll be your friend,your silhoutte
And everything you need
Everything you want

Bridge:
Cause boy,im deeply in love
At this young age
So dont,play with my heart
Even if Im fifteen

repeat chorus*

Made by nini.

GOSH, IM SUCH A BAD FRIEND.

2009-07-13T23:51:00.000-07:00

OMG , THIS IS MAKING ME CRY.

I DONT KNOW WHY,
im such a bad friend.
Without knowing , without me noticing.
IMMA BAD FRIEND.

I DONT KNOW, im just overrrrr.
Im just stupid, i hate my Jokes.
Sometimes, jokes will hurt people
I even hurt my own bestie.
GOSH, IM FUCKTARD.
IM STUPID. IMMA DUMBASS!

I DONT DESERVE TO BE happy,
IMMA FUCKTARD SHIT. SERIOUSLY.
I AM ONE. SO DON'T COME NEAR ME.

IM A FUCK FUCK FUCK,
I EVEN MAKE UR LIFE WORST. THATS THE ONLY THING I CAN SAY FOR NOW.
LATER , LATER IT WILL BECOME DISASTER
i DONT KNOW WHAT IM DOING D:
I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT I SAY, GOSH IMMMMA

FU

CK

TA

RD!

I will always be there for you , no matter what happens.

2009-07-11T00:43:00.000-07:00

AGE IS JUST A NUMBER YOU SHIT!

Okay sorry, i just wanted to tell you guys out there who think that age matter alot, i don't think so. I'll have to disagree.I hate it when people sound that only older people like 17 and above is all correct.They've been through alot about love, life and bla2 whatever shit.Here's the thing,some kids who are not even your age actually is facing it right now. Come on, not only 17 and above people who face that kinda of problem.Who can do anything , and not underage to do something illegal stuffs.

WE ALL HAVE BRAINS TO THINK!

Your words are just bringing my spirit down.But i shall prove it to you, i will try my best to be the best and do what ever im willing to do.I just wish i could just be there for you.My heart says so.I don't know im just sensitive with this type of things. It just makes me feel sad and gosh i don't know speechless right now.

After knowing what his going through, i felt likeee i love him more than he could ever imagine.I just love him to loads.It makes me adore him more and love him more for what he is.I want to be there for him no matter what. When he is sad or down, or need something.But im just too far away to prove that.But its okay , even he doesn't know that i am thinking of him and i care for him so much, i prove it to him one day when God is helping me to prove to him that i really do care for him.

HE is just someone that i never knew i could fall in love with.

Yes, i may not know whats Love. But for me love is SACRIFICATION.I wanna feel what he feel.I feel so dumb now. Thinking of what he've been through is much more sad than what i've been through.I feel like why am i not ungrateful for the things i've had now, and all the things he doesnt have what i have , he doesn't show to world what he've been through.That is really sad.I just dont know.The song guardian angel.Just reminds me of him.

I WILL NEVER LET YOU FALL,
I WILL STAND UP WITH YOU FOREVER,
ILL BE THERE FOR YOU THROUGHT IT ALL,
EVEN IF SAVING YOU SENDS ME TO HEAVEN.

Okay cheer up kiddo. You are just making people annoyed. Gosh xP
I miss and i love him very much ♥

FOR MY AWIE

2009-07-09T08:09:00.000-07:00

VULNERABLE

2009-07-07T08:00:00.000-07:00

Share with me the blankets that you're wrapped in
Because it's cold outside, it's cold out side
Share with me the secrets that you kept in
Because it's cold inside, it's cold inside

And your slowly shaking fingertips
Show that you're scared like me so
Let's pretend we're alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know we're unprepared
But I don?t care

Tell me tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible?
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don?t tell me that I'm the only one that?s vulnerable
Impossible

I was born to tell you I love you
Isn't that a song already?
I get a B in originality
And it's true I can't go on without you
Your smile makes me see clearer
If you could only see in the mirror what I see

And your slowly shaking fingertips
Show that you're scared like me so
Let's pretend we're alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know we're unprepared
But I don?t care

Tell me tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible?
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don?t tell me that I'm the only one that?s vulnerable
Impossible

Slow down BOY you're not going anywhere
Just wait around and see
Maybe I'm much more ,you never no what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone, I can be anything

Just because you were hurt doesn?t mean you shouldn?t bleed
I can be anyone, anything
I promise I can be what you need

Tell me tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible?
And I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don?t tell me that I'm the only one that?s vulnerable
Impossible

I won't feel better without you.

2009-07-04T22:33:00.000-07:00

Thank you bestfriend, for making me feel better.
I knew you are the only person who could understand how i felt.It broke my heart to see you sad too. So please, stop crying! Okay whatthell im talking about -,-
Okay here's the thing.

Shafiqah othman hamzah. You are the bestest friend i could ever had.I don't know why Allah send me a very wonderful person like you.You are one in a million.Maybe people who doesn't know you well will think its stupid to say you are ONE IN A MILLION.But guess you are (: When im down, you are there for me,always.When im in need, you are there for me. Everything happens, you are just there.I can't lie to the world that im not jealous to see you having alot of people loving you. Yes i can be very jealous to see how your world turns to be very lucky,but at the same time.I think i more luckier, cause i have YOU! XD hahaha xD apeee jee -,- But yeaa.Who could ever back me up that much with a long blog post and who could ever be there around me when im bored. You are always there. The reason why i know you are my bestfriend because, we shared everything. Except for our secret diary. That is kinda private , but gosh. We shared almost everything. I still have your undergarments with me (: haha xD Okay so , who would actually come to my house almost everyday to spend time with an idiot like me. YOU!? HAHA XD

IM SPEECHLESS NOW. I DONT KNOW YOU ARE JUST ,
INCREDIBLY AMAZING TO BE THE BESTEST FRIEND I EVER HAD!

THANK YOU VERY MUCH .
AND FUCK YOU! HAHAHA XD

joking :P LOVE YOU BEH ! ITS BEEN AWHILE I DIDNT POST ANYTHING ABOUT YOU THESE DAYS.
Sighs. take care my friend.

Awfully in love again?

2009-07-04T17:59:00.000-07:00

Okay , im liking this guy.FULLSTOP!

So this is how it goes,

well i never thought that i would find a guy like you(:

I shall thank God for that because

You are a very sweet and nice person.

We may be far and did not see each other,

But my heart will still go for you because

Without you i won't be smiling alone in my bedroom

And dreaming how we're going to be one day.

I will know that this will end someday because

I don't really believe in true love but

I'll try my best TO BE THE BEST!

I promise with all my heart, i won't let you down

MY LOVE.

wrote by nini<3>

Life is complicated and confusing

2009-07-03T03:20:00.000-07:00

Why do you say you hate me when i dont even do anything to you.

Did i say something wrong ? Where did i go wrong ? Did i hurt you? Did i even abused you?
Please give me an explanation. Im sorry if i ever offended you, but as far as i noticed that i didn't do anything to you.I don't even say anything hurtful to you. You are the one whose saying stuffs about me ,i mean you are joking that is all about, but, how could you hate me when you know that i like you ? Im concerned. I can't live with this, you are my classmate.Provided that, i'll be seeing you everyday in class. Please don't do this to me. Why are you running away from me ? I've been honest to you lately , why can't you just tell me the truth why u are running away from me.I knew this would happen someday.

RULE NO.1 - CONFESSIONS ARE ONLY FOR MATURES PEOPLE.(who can actually accept it well)

RULE NO.2-WHEN YOU WANNA TELL THE TRUTH, MAKE SURE U THINK WISELY.

RULE NO.3-BECAREFUL WITH WHO YOU'RE DEALING WITH!

Okay , this are few rules that i made for myself. Those rules are going to be the very first rule in my life. Im going to start to have rules in my life now.Having a boyfriend,isn't a right option.Besides, who need Boys now? All we need is to study. Get good grades and be a good girl. This is not like me. But i've got to do what's best for me. I'm not going to be the old Nini. Im going to becareful who I'm dealing with. Right now,i just noticed how stupid am I to fall in love or to like a guy like "you".Writing about how life's gonna be isn't easy. Not that easy;hard.-At my age, i will find loads and loads of boys, I even can get involve with LOVE.

LOVE;UNLOVE.Just so you know, Love is not my favourite word.Its hard to tell whether you love or you don't love that person.Once you get bored of that person, trust me. Somehow,you will hurt him one day. So please, Be honest and don't make him suffer. Let the other party makes u suffer. Don't do it on other person. Its just the rule that i learn from Kak Nur.At this age, as in WE as a teenager. We ourselves know that Love is not eternity. Somehow, it will end when you die. Im not being a downer or something, but we shouldn't believe that person very fast when they told you they love you. They might lie and might make u fantasize of some stuffs that u think would happen , but actually it won't.The biggest fear in my life is that,

Im scared that i would be stupid enough to believe that someone really deep.

IM NAIVE.

Besides,we must enjoy life at this age.Its fun to be at this age. And yes, studying is stress.Hell yeah , we are suppose to be stress about studies not LOVE.So why waste time thinking of love, when you know you are not ready to be in love with that person.I didn't say that Im right 100% but im just saying from my heart.I've been thinking lately about liking someone.And i just notice that CRUSHING AND LOVING is too different types of category. Its not the same.

Having a crush on someone is easy. It is very easy, even sometimes the guy you never thought you would like, you will like .
In love with someone is not that easy , unless if you really really think he/she is the one. Then yes, be straightforward. Don't let go of a great oppurtinity that can change your life. But don't regret when something bad happens in your life because what you get is what you learn.Im sick of being played and sick of being in love. I sound so MS. KNOWS EVERYTHING.But seriously, i am sick of it. I can't stand this anymore.I shall becareful who im dealing with now.

From me to you.

Dear Someone,

I don't know what im dealing now but i know this words are for you.From the first start i saw you. You didn't mean a thing to me. But after awhile, when I know you could make me smile and laugh everyday,i started thinking that you are the kind of person i should like.But i was wrong. I guess i just made you angry or crossed.Out of the blue, you're hating me. I don't know where i go wrong. But i shall say that, i wish happiness for you (: Wishing you the best in life. Hope you study well and get good grades and beat my marks.I miss the way you joke, i miss the way you smile at me even for just one day you didn't talk to me. I guess, i don't mean a thing to you anymore.All i did is to fake a smile and watch you make jokes with other people in class.Although you think that i don't care.I do care about you. Everyday of my life ,I care. But just one thing, you are my light saviour in class (: thank you very much.

That's all i can say now. You are very special, but i guess i moved on (: I know i deserve the best.I know there will be someone who will love me for ME.

RULE NO.5- THERE IS NO RULE NO.4!

Rashid.

2009-07-02T00:17:00.000-07:00

I miss your jokes and i miss your smile (:

Oh gosh, i've been trying and trying to msg him, but i can't.I don't know why. I just miss him and i really do. He is a very spontaneous guy and he loves to make jokes. I laugh to his jokes alot. Although we met for only 2 days, but i feel like i've met you for i dont know, months? But im sure as hell, you have no idea that i've miss you alot this days. Without my cousin,Sazri. I wouldn't know a nice guy like you exist in this world.We met on the day my cousin was married. Which was my kakak sedare, Kak Ida. So this is how we started talking.

I was helping my beloved cousin, Baby,wiping some plates.So Sazri, told them to help us because there's alot to wipe. Damn xD And his not the only guy who came, but he brought another friend of his which is Botak and the real name is Taufiq. So after wiping all those plates and some equipments we went outside to sit and watch people singing. So i sat beside him and he start talking to me and ask.

Da makan?
Huhh?Are u talking to me or my cousin?
Due2 laaa.
Ohh hahah xD daa daa.

Okay so on. And we start talking and asking question, which i forget what kind of question we asked each other. And Botak was there with us so as my cousin Baby and Sazri. But Botak didn't talk that much , and i tot he doesnt bother to know me D: And we did talk but just abit, and that night was dinner night. So we've been helping and lepak-ing together since that.We talk alot and i don't know just do stuffs together. Not really just both of us la. But yeaaa. I did met alot of new friends, which is Sazri's friends.They are all very nice people (: I like, i met alot too. I mention only the one i remembered okay? Luqman,Aj,Wan and alot la. I dont remember. I only manage to remembered the one whose close with me. So, that night after that dinner thingy, Acit and Taufiq was going to Ton at Sazri's house. But then Acit cant make it because his mum suddenly called him and told him that his grandmother just fell from the toilet. So he was paranoid, he left quickly. So he doesnt ton ): And i felt sad. I felt so lonely then. But then lucky me there was Botak too entertain me, so as Aj and BABY. HAHA.It was quite fun that night, cause we laugh and talk and all. Botak was quite nice (: I lepak with him till late night with my cousin Baby.But i left them because i was really tired and my contact lenses are killing my EYES.

So after that, i went to sleep. I don't know why i couldn't sleep. I keep on complaining to Botak, Baby and Aj that i miss Acit. Maybe because Acit was a fun guy to hangout with and they thought i liked him. Yes, its true that i liked him. But as a close friend la.It is too early to say that i like him, more than just a friend. So and wait, his voice is amazing (: Okay and back to the story.I sleep la of course, but i was awake. Kinda early that morning, since my mum asked me to take stuffs cause it was Sunday xD The biggest day for us. And i was pretty busy on that day. I had to help my cousins of course. So after that, Acit came quite late, but i can't blame him for being late because its like Hellooooo, the grandmother was injured. Poor thing ): Okay so, ermm and then i was walking towards the back place, to go to the kitchen suddenly i saw him. I was really happy to finally see him there. I smiled widely and told him that i miss him very much. Okay so Aj , Botak and everyone and well what do u know i met alot of my cousins(: MISS THEM SO MUCH and i make new friends too (: Lol. So that evening, Baby Botak Aj was missing. I felt so lonely because Acit is doing his work and i dont wanna bother him right, so i went to search for them alone. So i found them , they were sitting under the void deck near to Sazri's block. So i told them to go there and help me and i felt so lonely , suddenly they told me that Acit likes me . I thought it was a joke, but then its kinda real after Acit himself told me that he likes me. It was a really long story to tell. Seriously. Very long and its kinda weird how confession of Love starts when Acit told me he likes me . Like for example Aj(which is a boy) told my cousin Baby that he likes her.Okay i didn't see that coming but i can see that Aj likes her bcause Aj likes to walk with Baby, but i see Baby and Taufiq together often . But i was kinda surprise how can Aj and Baby liked each other when... nvm D: Okay so , it was really random to tell me that he likes me. Hahah, but my answer was.

Do you like me ?
Yes, i like you but just a friend.
Okay, i respect your decision.
Thank you. And it is early to say yes or no whether i want to be your gf because its like we've met for 2 days , and yes we did hangout the whole day together but it doesnt mean that i know you well.
Yeaaa, true. I respect your decision.

I mean at least he does respect my decision right? He may not be that good-looking to be a perfect guy.But my mum said , She can see that Acit is a nice guy (: Well he is one, but i just need to know him well first. I hope we didn't lose contact or something. Damn i miss him ):

Here's a picture of him, not that clear but this will do.

Why am i still thinking of you?

2009-07-01T05:34:00.000-07:00

WHY AM I STILL LISTENING TO YOUR LOVESONGS?

Why why whyyyyyyy?! WHYYYYYYY?!
What is this? Is this like some kinda voodoo thingy or something ?Gosh :/
Everywhere i go,i would just think of you. Why should i think of you, when u dont even think of me right?And why should i even listen to all the songs that u gave me when i know you dont bother to listen to the love song i gave to you. And why should i even talk about you,when i don't freaking love you anymore.

IM NOT LOVING YOU ANYMORE RIGHT?
and you are not loving me too.

Why do i still care and why do i still NOT over you?I mean come on, I'm not over someone like YOU?! *singing to myself* YOU ARE NOT ALONE.....
Argh, i dont know what just got into me D: He doesn't deserve any of my attention neither of all my love for him. I just need to focus on my studies.

His not important at ALL.

At this age, LOVE IS STILL YOUNG.macaaam pahaaam .
But yeaaa true,come on.We still got a very long way to go.We miight find someone better in lifes right?Who knows...... We all deserve better. Yeaaa after we got hurt.There's always a reason why GOD doesnt want you to be with that someone.OMG YEAAAA ITS TRUE. How come i didnt notice that -,- shitfcuk.

HATE THAT I LOVE YOU SO.

Sorry?!

2009-06-29T22:56:00.000-07:00

Are u oblivious?

How could you not know whats ur FLAWS is? Are you stoopid?
I can't stand this anymore.You are playing with my heart, you think i didn't mean it when i say i really do love you? And you know, im starting to trust you even if you didn't call or message me , but Boy! I gave up. You played with my heart. Im not your only victim, there are other girls who became ur victim. You think im stupid? I knowwwwwww.

I should have been awaken from the first start. Not blinded by your amazing eyes and kiss.You know what, i know you don't even still keep your promise. Yes you can say you still hold onto your promise. But you never prove it to me. I don't wanna waste my Love to a guy like you who doesn't even accept me in front of people. I can hold your hands when people is not around,and when people is around act like we are NOTHING when there's actually something going on. You gave me that sweettalk that you would wait for me and all. But all i see is me imagining myself standing in the rain waiting for you to come and save me, but you didnt save me .Yes, we may not be together but you said for yourself, that you see us as a couple. What the hell is that? Tryna make me feel better? Save your words for the soap operas.

You are my enemie once, don't make it twice. Cause if i do hate you, i shall say that i hate you, really.

I thought im going to be weak about this. But no, im not. Im not gonna just give in. I hope you get your karma back, playing all the girls heart. I hope one day , when u found someone you really love, played behind your back and cheats on you and Just LEAVE you there crying on the floor begging her not to let go of you.Maybe you wouldn't do that infront of her, unless if you really do love her. Im not praying this will happen to you, but i want youuu. A GUY LIKE YOUUUU SUFFER AS MUCH AS HOW ALL THE GIRLS SUFFER LOVING YOU. Its okay , let it be. See how it goes. I dont know why im still not over YOU. But im pretty sure , I will one day.

I CANT BELIEVE I ACTUALLYYYYY ...
ARGH! Forget it.

I wont trust you anymore. All you said is they touch you but u didnt touch them.
Helllloooo, you think im stooopid again ? If they really do touches you, you could've stop them and didnt go with the flow. I trusted you , and all you said you dont like me chatting with Shiril ?
What the fuck is that? If you don't love me , say it. And im pretty SURE you dont even know whats love. Gosh, STOP MAKING ME SUFFER!

WHY AM I STILL NOT OVER YOU, when you hurt me already D: <

ARRRRGHHHHHHH .

bad intention.

2009-06-28T22:50:00.000-07:00

STUPID BOY!

Some people are just born to have bad intention. I don't know why , he just can't take stupid jokes.And seriously, i meant joke it is a JOKE! I never mean it, and come on eewww la siol D: You are very small to compare to me although u are abit taller than me. I hate it when people cant take jokes.

him:asal kau ckp aku bf kau doe?
me:hahha , aku main2 je laaa D:<
him:*make faces* asal dooe?
me:eeee aku main2 je laa, kau pikir aku nak kau ke?
him:kau pikir aku nak kau ke?
me: wtfff D:<>

Like come on laaaaaa! I was joking to them, and they are even stupid to believe me. How can we be steady when im in love with the person who ... NEVERMIND. And its like yes i like you before, but whatthefcuk. You think im so desperarate to like a guy like youuuuu?! You are fucking childish and you are like i dont knowww... u make me hate and disgust with you D:< style="font-weight: bold; font-family: times new roman;" size="4"> YOU MAKE ME SICK D:< WHATEVERRRRRR SIAK JANTAN.

I will seriously ignoreee youuuu -,-

And about schoool. Helium at first doesn't really talk to me and then when sivik period , he start making joke and talk to me. Omg he asked me out (: Should i go or not? cause i've been spending my weekend at ONE UTAMA D:

MY ALL TIME FAVE!

2009-06-28T04:55:00.001-07:00

A RANDOM VIDEO.

2009-06-28T03:48:00.000-07:00

WHAT A DAY!

2009-06-27T21:14:00.000-07:00

ONE UTAMA.

Okay so yesterday ,I went to one utama with Shafiqah.Who else! hahah xD
And we did some stuffs to get rid of this stupid guy D:<

HE IS FUCKING ANNOYING.

So and i dont want to bragg it here.Not nice,so if u want to know the real story call me,
haha xD And we ate at Yoshinoya.I dont know how to spell it but whatever.
And we manage to watch 17 AGAIN,a very romantic and stupid movie. HAHAHAHA xD
ZAC EFRON IS FUCKING HOT IN THAT MOVIE. WHYYY ?!
Okay so, before waiting for our 7.30movie,which we are quite dissapointed that we can't watch TRANSFORMERS, we meet up with Malek, his friend Arif and my classmate Arif.Well i also meet up with Malek's mum and sister. Awwww i shall upload the picture soon. Her sister's name is Raihan and omg she looks like RAAIQA AND SHAZANA(azim's lil sis) and she is very cuteeeeeee(: Awwwww, she has a very cute brother also. hahahahaha xD

Omg and shafiqah is like PAISEH, becauseeeee she tot she was sms-ing the cuter Arif,not theother Arif(weasel) I dont know she call that Arif a weasel,seriously.

malek: soo...lepas ni korang pergi mane?
me:lepas korang masuk wayang kite jln2 ah .
malek:oh okayyyy
(:
nini:aku nmpk lain tak?
malek:kau nmpk lain gler doe.
nini:hahahaha xD
malek:kau seksi
gler!

HAHA ,malek is so cute.Well he met my bestfriend, and omg i still can't believe i met his Mummeh. haha xD SHE IS HOT AND SEXEEEEEHHH ! What a hot mamaaaaaa!
Lol:P She is like chinese looking. But pwweetyyy (:

So i guessi'll stop here.I will talk about it laterrrrrrrr.BYEBYE!

A great confession.

2009-06-25T00:08:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, your wish will come true.

Oh and at last, TAAADAAAH. My wish come true! As in, not really my wish, but i was hoping (: Okay so, so what if he tells me that he likes me , pfft* big deal D: hahaha xD

YES, IT IS A BIG DEAL!
I mean gosh , people let's celebrate and be happy for me :DDD

hahahahahah xD I mean it is a very happy news and its really shocking . I mean come on , HELIUM SAYS THAT HE LIKES ME? WOWWWWWWWWW, that is really shocken. I mean HIM ? HIMMMMM?! HAHAHAAHAH XD, this iz funneh . So all this while , we are liking each other and being jealous to each other? I mean in class, we are like totally friends and hitting each other. And now we are likeeeeee..... hahahaahahha xD okay this iz coolszxs D: so weird that he confess it to me in a cute way .

OH AND IM SO HAPPY THAT I STEP ON A SHIT -,-

hohoho. so happeh :D thank you ALLAH!

Sakit hati?

2009-06-24T03:26:00.000-07:00

So is this a confession ?

So when i talk about him to you all this while. You are JEALOUS? D:<
Okay this iz weird D:

i'm taking back my LOVE.

2009-06-23T06:11:00.000-07:00

YOU DON'T DESERVE MY LOVE!
And you don't deserve everything that I have written below.

YOU DON'T EVEN STAY TRUE TO YOUR PROMISE.
I don't fucking care, but are you fucking stupid?
CHATTING and TOUCHING are 2 completely different things.

ARGH.

This is for you, fucker.

FOREVER & ALWAYS
Once upon a time, I believe it was a Tuesday when I caught your eye
And we caught onto something
I hold onto the night, you looked me in the eye and told me you loved me

Were you just kidding?
'cause it seems to me, this thing is breaking down
We almost never speak
I don't feel welcome anymore
BABI what happened, please tell me?

'cause one second it was perfect, now you're halfway out the door

And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always

Was I out of line?
Did I say something way too honest, made you run and hide
Like a scared little boy
I looked into your eyes
Thought I knew you for a minute, now I'm not so sure

So here's everything coming down to nothing
Here's to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute, but I don't anymore

And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it BABI, I don't think so

Back up, BABI, back up
Did you forget everything
Back up, BABI, back up
Did you forget everything

'cause it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always

Oh, I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when we said forever and always

And it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it BABI, you said forever and always I don't think so yeah

I want your call.

2009-06-17T05:24:00.000-07:00

I miss him a lot and each day....

I pray that he would at least text me. But i don't expect him to msg me everyday la. But i miss him very much. Just incase if he really does read this, which i don't think he will. I miss you very much , i always think about you. And im always curious, do you think of me ? Do you forget about me ? Do u still keep ur promises. But im sure, i know , i trust you (: Not yet 100% , because I still don't think that human trust each other that much ! But yeaaaaa, the last call you called me is that when you told me you are hot because of..... teeeet the line is off ): That is very sad, i miss your voice And i know i sound so obsess but im Not. i just tell you what comes from my heart.

I always think of your jokes, your smile, your hugs, your eyes, your voice and all those times when i was in your arms. I held your hands tightly and was thinking to never let go. But i had to leave, my tears went down my cheeks, i was really sad and really don't want to let go. But times runs very fast everytime we were together.Before i went to bed, i look at our picture and listen to your voice. So that i can sleep soundly. But i guess im wrong, i still can't sleep expecting something really nice happens.... But still nothing happen. Its not your fault though, can't help it if you can't call or text me.All i know is that, i was hoping you to not forget about me. Everytime in school or everywhere i go, i would think of you. And i pray to God to forgive all your sins and to protect you from something bad happens to you.Amin.What are you doing now? i miss you badly. Why do i miss you badly? I miss one part the most, is your smell. The perfume that turns me crazy. I'll always hold your shirt and hugg it when i want to go to bed. Even if i want to go anywhere , i would bring it. Accept for the part im going to the toilet. And the smell is gone now, far apart from me. My mum wash the shirt you gave me, and tears run down my cheeks again. I can't stand it, i don't wanna be like this. I shall prove to you I'm strong without you, but in love with you and still misses you.Always staring at the bear in the bottle, when i think of you. However those hypnotize moments is still in my mind.

Okay , OMG:O Thiz is really shockenszxszxs. I never write this jiwang before over a guy. Omg :O A guy , not just a guy, but my enemy from my primary school. And now, im like writing something really .... i dont know about how i felt when we are apart. Ooookaaayy this is very weird, but yeaaa. i never write something like this siiololssxzxs D: HAHAHA XD Omg, im like whateverrrr. Lol :P But i really do miss him and love him.

I wont give him my whole heart to him, but as i can prove to him now is that i really do love him (: I just MUST be ready if one day i just have to let him go.Even one day , i do know that he will not stick around like how he always stick around with me.But if i do have to let him go one day ,and Allah doesnt allow me to be with him, i know there is always a reason why i cant be with him. I just have to take the fact, cause we all are still young to be in love and trust love. And I shall say , however i will always remember him no matter what. Because firstly,

I never talk to him in school years ago.
He is an enemy
I never think his attractive
I never think of him
And never thought to date with him
Right now, i love him
and I miss him alot (:

It is funneh right ?You are like in love with your enemy right now.He is the very first enemy im in love with and i freaking wrote a song for him! :O Gosh , this is funny. And one more thing i should say with all my heart...

Kerna Ku Sayang Kamu,
caution this a song from Dygta but it looks like i dont have to explain anything when the songs explain it all :D

Seandainya, kau ada disini denganku,
mungkin ku tak sendiri
Bayanganmu, yang selalu menemaniku,
hiasi malam sepiku
Ku ingin bersama dirimu

Ku tak akan pernah, berpaling darimu
Walau kini, kau jauh dariku
‘kan s’lalu ku nanti, karena, ku sayang kamu

Hati ini, selalu memanggil namamu,
dengarlah melatiku
Ku berjanji, hanyalah untukmu cintaku,
takkan pernah ada yang lain

Adakah rindu dihatimu, seperti rindu yang ku rasa
Sanggupkah ku terus terlena, tanpamu di sisiku,
ku ‘kan s’lalu menantimu

Tell me that you careeeeeee..
Tell me that you'd always be thereee..
Tell me that you seeeeeeeeee the heart in me :D

WOHOOOO

2009-06-15T06:09:00.000-07:00

CAN YOU TELL THE DIFFERENCE?

NOTHING BUT YOUR T-SHIRT ON!

2009-06-14T06:26:00.000-07:00

I TRUST YOU , and that's all i can tell you for now.
And i love youuuuuuuuuuu.

I am Sinner,

2009-06-14T05:42:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, when you just sit and you didn't do anything , but just sit and think...
Do you ever think that you made a lot of stupid mistakes in your life?

Sometimes i feel like i don't regret because one think , if i do regret , I would never learn my mistakes. How to make it better and good:D I don't deserve to be happy. I don't deserve to be love. Because all I do is making sins in life and never ever thought of changing my behaviour D:

I think im crapping D: Maybe because i am just down now. Or maybe , i felt like
WHY CAN'T THAT SOMEONE JUST ACCEPT ME AS ME ?
Why can't he just try and make me feel better ? Whyyyyyyy ?

I DONT DESERVE THIS D:

I AM DOWN, I feel like dying D:
I HATE MY LIFE !